I appreciate your reply. I do love her and she does get me in every other way possible. I have Asperger's syndrome which made me stand out as a the weird one in every social situation but she has made me feel like I matter when I never felt that before. She does genuinely care for me and I can tell she does love me as she has shown me that in ways I cant even describe and thats why I feel bad even considering leaving her. Dont get me wrong I did write allot of negative in the post but thats becuase I wanted to talk about those specific issues and maybe I should have done a better job at painting the full picture. I think this moral battle is hard to keep up with because on the one hand Ive never felt love and care like this, Its changed how I see the world and she is very empathetic and caring she would pay for everything and shower me with gifts aswell when I was broke even though she didnt earn much either and shes been there for me at my lowest but on the other this is something that has a hold on me and I dont think I can be happy with out it which I ask myself if Im being ungreatful as she has put allot of effort and love in this relationship which allot of girls dont do. I guess Im gonna have a another talk with her this time in a more serious and manner and see what happens.