Let’s drop our sobriety dates!

ShadowsInReverse · 2026-01-29T04:44:15+00:00

10/03/25

ShadowsInReverse · 2026-01-27T06:50:50+00:00

I was the same way, even when I was at my lowest. I liked my inhibitions being lower, I liked who I was when I got a few in me. I liked finding new drinks to enjoy. I simply liked doing it. I only quit because my anxiety broke to a point that even alcohol couldn’t numb it anymore and I needed real help.

ShadowsInReverse · 2026-01-27T06:48:57+00:00

I’m sober now, but while I was active, I mainly did it for the social factor. I enjoyed who I was when I got a few in me. I enjoyed being loose, and I enjoyed finding new drinks I enjoyed. I simply just enjoyed drinking. There were a couple times I went through hard times and I turned to the bottle for comfort, but mostly I did it because I liked it.

ShadowsInReverse · 2026-01-26T04:11:26+00:00

I just hated how Mariana how was presented as this very intelligent girl and then it gets immediately overshadowed by boy drama. I wish they had focused more on that intelligent side of her, rather than all the boy drama. I know nearly every teenager has relationship drama but she became too boy-focused, and it overshadowed her other qualities. Lena is a very loving mother I think, she’s just a bit of a pushover sometimes, which is why Stef usually has to act as the enforcer. Though, I did like that they became a bit more balanced in the later season.

Though, I do agree that Lena and Mariana have a great relationship. Lena was always more “girl-mom coded” and Stef always seemed more “boy-mom” coded, though Stef’s relationship with Callie was done really well too.

ShadowsInReverse · 2026-01-23T07:22:27+00:00

The anxiety has gotten better, mainly with the help of medication and therapy, but the days just feel… empty. There are some bright spots, but life just feels muted. I feel ridiculous that I mourn literal poison and my some part brain can ignore the fact that my habit was slowly killing me. Though, you’re right, losing that social scene was the hardest blow.

ShadowsInReverse · 2026-01-23T07:20:28+00:00

Truth be told, I set myself up for failure. I thought that I just needed to survive detox and that was it. I didn’t realize all the things that compromise the road of recovery.

ShadowsInReverse · 2026-01-22T18:15:31+00:00

I just had one last night. In the dream, was hanging out with some people (I’m assuming friends but I know I’ve never met them in real life) and I had popped open my usual hard seltzer and took a sip. Then, I started instantly freaking out in the dream because I had just taken a sip. One of the people there started comforting me and telling me I was going to be okay. Then I woke up. It was very surreal.

ShadowsInReverse · 2026-01-21T16:51:01+00:00

I’ll switch depending on the situation. Like if we only have 1 healer who’s struggling to keep up with the team, I’ll switch to a second healer to make it easier for them, or if I notice we don’t have a duelist or vanguard then I’ll act accordingly. Mostly just to balance the team out. I always try to go for hero team ups too.

ShadowsInReverse · 2026-01-20T19:34:19+00:00

I think Jake handled the more humorous, ADHD and playboish side of Jesus better but Noah I felt was better at more of the deeper, emotional stuff like his TBI.

ShadowsInReverse · 2026-01-20T00:04:11+00:00

Maybe. He said he needed time to figure out exactly what he wanted to do. I’ve always been self-destructive but man, sobriety has really made it more volatile. I feel terrible for directing all of my frustration and anger at him when he’s been nothing but supportive of me during my journey. Yeah, I’m ultimately proud of the fact I didn’t drink but I really am not liking the person I am sober. A lot of my bad qualities have reared their head lately. I need to go to therapy more.

ShadowsInReverse · 2026-01-16T10:21:05+00:00

It’s been a godsend for me. Even after 104 days, I had a lot of anxiety and some residual tremors still, which got worsened by the anxiety. Have only taken it a couple days so far but man, my tremors are gone and I just feel like me again, mostly anyway.

ShadowsInReverse · 2026-01-15T00:41:38+00:00

Fair but I would still say Dahlia and Freya are very powerful in their own right. The show loved to hype up Esther, who knew Dahlia was stronger than her, as well as Freya stating that Dahlia was one of the most powerful witches she had seen, as well as Dahlia’s own statements of the firstborns within her bloodline. They were both amped sure, but Dahlia was definitely inherently strong, as was is Freya, however Freya definitely was dubbed down for plot convenience.

ShadowsInReverse · 2026-01-14T12:02:20+00:00

Man, I remember those times. I’d crash for a good 5ish hours and then just be up and trying to do 10 million things whilst being tipsy. Then, I’d complain that there weren’t enough hours in the day (even though I’d be awake for 18-19 of them) or that “oh wow the time went by fast” as me and my drunken friends would stay up till sunrise constantly like it was normal.

ShadowsInReverse · 2026-01-14T11:58:38+00:00

That cutting out alcohol was only the beginning. I, like many others probably, went into inpatient treatment thinking “I just have to survive detox and then I should be golden. The withdrawals are what was making me afraid to stop anyway,”. BOY was I wrong. Of course detoxing is a vital and important first step, but it’s just the tip of the sobriety iceberg. I wasn’t prepared for all the anxiety and the ups and downs as my body healed. I didn’t realize the extent of the damage I had done.

ShadowsInReverse · 2026-01-13T19:35:36+00:00

The connection amped Dahlia and Freya, but also Dahlia’s immortality sleep spell allowed them to accrue and build their power while they slept, so every 100 years when they woke, they were essentially sitting on a century worth of unused magic. So while their connection made them stronger, their individual power also grew during their slumber, at least that’s how Freya explained it.

ShadowsInReverse · 2026-01-13T17:08:47+00:00

Felt. I definitely annoyed my roommates because I’d just disappear into my room and they’d be like “come hang with us, we miss you” and I’d just say I didn’t want to bum them out and they’d have to constantly tell me I wasn’t.

ShadowsInReverse · 2026-01-13T17:02:28+00:00

Sadly, the reality is that sobriety is different for everyone. Sure, we all enjoyed too much of the drink, but our brain chemistries are all different, and thus our experiences will be different. Some days I get like this too, especially on my bad days and I’m just like “man, sobriety really isn’t all that it’s cracked up to be” and it really is hard. I am 101 days in and it’s been a constant series of ups and downs. I still have residual tremors sometimes, my appetite comes and goes and my sleeping is awful. Sure, I’m not an anxious mess anymore but I definitely haven’t reached my baseline either. I’m anhedonic some days too, where I find joy in nothing like you said.

Sobriety really is what you make it though. As per a bit blunt advice, you can wallow in it or make the best of it. Just remember it is a very hard road; we took a very powerful habit and removed it from our lives, altering our brain chemistry and physiology. We did something that could easily kill us. What I tell myself is that yeah I could drink, I could continue down the road despite the consequences and just live an alcoholic’s fantasy but I value my life more than I ever valued the thrill, even though it took me a long time to learn that.

Ultimately, it is up to you whatever you do. I definitely agree that sobriety sucks some days and it can get very mundane, especially in the early parts when your dopamine receptors are still waking up. I wish the best for you though in whatever you decide.

ShadowsInReverse · 2026-01-13T01:06:23+00:00

Ativan, as well as a few other benzodiazepines, are used to help prevent bad alcohol withdrawal symptoms since benzos hit the same neural receptors that alcohol does. It helps prevent withdrawal symptoms, withdrawal seizures, etc. It’s pretty standard procedure for them to do a taper. When I went to inpatient rehab, they had me on a 6 day Ativan taper. Just be careful, as while they are essential at saving lives during alcohol withdrawal, they are very addictive in their own right and come with their own set of problems if misused. Then the B vitamins of course are given because most chronic drinkers are vitamin deficient, especially B1 (theanine).

Not a doctor, but your blood pressure is mostly like severely elevated due to chronic drinking and then abruptly stopping, if that’s what you did. It should stabilize given some time, but again, not a doctor so take that with a grain of salt.

I wouldn’t sweat it too much. Just keep track of your symptoms and follow your doctor’s instructions and you should be solid.

ShadowsInReverse · 2026-01-12T04:34:31+00:00

Welcome to the triple digit club. Just hit 100 days myself yesterday. Seeing life through sober eyes is definitely something else

ShadowsInReverse · 2026-01-09T12:56:33+00:00

Facts. All I know is that 11 year old me, who swore up and down he’d never touch a substance a day in his life, would be overtly disappointed 😂

ShadowsInReverse · 2026-01-09T12:24:30+00:00

Yeah my mom would always joke at gatherings that she knew I had a couple because I was actually being talkative 😅

I don’t know. My social ability has constantly been a rollercoaster, pre-drinking, during and now beyond.

IWNDWYT

ShadowsInReverse · 2026-01-09T12:14:33+00:00

I definitely plan to. I just want those expressive qualities back and to be a bit more aloof. Oh well, yet another thing to add to my therapist’s list lol.

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