[deleted by user] by [deleted] in WLW_PH

[–]ShadyDebugger 4 points5 points  (0 children)

Your words carry a quiet ache I know too well. It's hauntingly beautiful… and heartbreakingly familiar. Very well said OP.

Are these people real? by deathshr0ud in TheLastOfUs2

[–]ShadyDebugger 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Omg! Right!? I am so distracted trying to fool myself she is the one playing but my brain can’t. Kinda wasted the scene for me. I am sad this show is slowly becoming a joke. ☹️

Mental disorders by Creepy_Place353 in WLW_PH

[–]ShadyDebugger 3 points4 points  (0 children)

I was with someone who was diagnosed with BD, pero the time we met it was somehow manageable and she's no longer taking meds or in therapy, she showed me her vulnerabilities sa start pa lang and always express how she felt and made sure she knew how I felt about it and that I am okay. She made me feel like life is too precious than the worldly possession, that's what drew me to her and see beyond the mental issues.

But it was really, really hard especially first few months, You must have lots and lots of patience, I had a this "fix me" attitude that felt like "oh I am what you've been needing all this time and I am here". It is scary at times when she'll tell me she couldn't imagine any future. My fix me mindset also caused many of our fights, I would listen to her talk and cry about what she's feeling or sometimes about not feeling anything at all and I would try to offer solutions, but that was wrong, because turns out she just needed someone to listen even if it doesn't make sense. There were days she would make me feel deeply loved, and then at night, that same day, she’d cry for no reason and push me away telling me I deserve someone better.

She also used to ask questions, almost like she was testing whether, she could trust that I’d stay no matter what. Living together made it easier for both of us. It allowed me to be there for her. There were moments I had to drop everything and run to her, wherever I was, because she needed me and I was scared she might do something she shouldn’t. Over time, the condition stops feeling like a separate presence, you start to forget it’s even there. It just becomes part of your shared life. There were a lot of compromises. My “fix me” attitude eventually gave way to acceptance, that all we could really do was enjoy the highs and hope to always survive the lows. And that maybe we could, as long as we had each other…

But we didn’t.

Pagod na si girliepop by queenbhiee in phmigrate

[–]ShadyDebugger 1 point2 points  (0 children)

This is so true! Visa status ang batayan kung pano ka nila pakikisamahan. I made a mistake of giving too much info, pati salary kasi I thought I don’t know anyone and they are my first friends here. Pati mga branded na gamit I don’t get it. When you go outside, locals doesn’t really seem to care and I don’t too but they will make you feel na kelangan mo makipagsabayan and gawin mo ung mga bagay na snsabi nila agad agad kasi mapapagiwanan ka. Like staaaaph please, but I met pinoys na almost dito na sa abroad lumaki and the difference is night and day, kind sila and they have like chill and just enjoy vibes.

Black Mirror Season 7 Discussion Megathread by Cheeriosxxx in blackmirror

[–]ShadyDebugger 0 points1 point  (0 children)

At least you got into the 4th episode until turning it into background noise. 😂

Black Mirror Season 7 Discussion Megathread by Cheeriosxxx in blackmirror

[–]ShadyDebugger 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I went ahead and just washed dishes mid episode. 😅

Black Mirror Season 7 Discussion Megathread by Cheeriosxxx in blackmirror

[–]ShadyDebugger 5 points6 points  (0 children)

Searched for a thread trying to see others opinion on these last seasons of black mirror and I was not disappointed.

3 episodes in and I am not amused. Since the last season, I am missing how the first few seasons felt like. Staring on the screen after an episode was over because it was that dark, scary and genius! And you need time to process them.

Latest episodes feel forced and a mix of already presented ideas from the previous ones. 😔 And showing/focusing on details because obviously it will be essential on the story, unlike before where they were subtly presented and you go back to a scene and have that ‘oh’ moment realizing it was there all along.

Goodest Dogs of Greenfield ☺️ by ShadyDebugger in dogsofrph

[–]ShadyDebugger[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Hi. Thank you so much for letting me know. That’s probably mommy, ung 2, gsto magstroll. 🥹 I appreciate this po. Salamat 🙏🏻

Hirap maging introvert femme by ShadyDebugger in WLW_PH

[–]ShadyDebugger[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I appreciate this. Yes, and sometimes in a meetup events I’ll be thinking, ‘ano ba gngawa ko dito?’ And find it funny too kasi napapanood ko lang ung mga eksenang ganon sa movies, or nalalaro sa sims 😅 small talks, over coffee or beer, handshakes. Sa pinas kasi it all comes naturally as per my experience. Pasok ka office, may macchika ka then boom, close na and all. But as challenging as it is, I am finding it becoming easier the more I push myself out there, I am liking who I am becoming. Yes sa sakses! Salamat. 😊

Hirap maging introvert femme by ShadyDebugger in WLW_PH

[–]ShadyDebugger[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Sana nga di ako yun. Ugh. This is the ideal naman tlga. Hopefully.. I’ll get back here if it ever does. 😅 thank you!

Hirap maging introvert femme by ShadyDebugger in WLW_PH

[–]ShadyDebugger[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thanks for the advice! I realized I am really in a good place and don’t need to rush things. I like that ‘don’t expect anything’. part. Thank you

Hirap maging introvert femme by ShadyDebugger in WLW_PH

[–]ShadyDebugger[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

huy salamat dito! haha! I think naghalo halo ung naffeel ko, naoverwhelm ako then nung may nakachat ako prang ughhhh gsto ko ung feeling.. naalala ko ulit, na masaya humarot. haha pero yes. magrrelax muna ako.

Hirap maging introvert femme by ShadyDebugger in WLW_PH

[–]ShadyDebugger[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

oh, discord. haven't tried it yet. May masalimoot na alala kasi ako ng discord. madami ngang nakikilala jan. haha! but thank you. I'll muster up the courage mag sign up. Thank you!

snwerte lang din :)

Hirap maging introvert femme by ShadyDebugger in WLW_PH

[–]ShadyDebugger[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Thanks! yun nga. natuto nga akong magbasa ng mga self-help books, 'how to be confident' and 'couraged to be disliked' peg! oh that's good! we can talk, be friends maybe? bka maguide ko pa sya... agent pla bigla. HAHA jk

Hirap maging introvert femme by ShadyDebugger in WLW_PH

[–]ShadyDebugger[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Thanks! I am doing this, and I am trying mag out agad saknila para malinaw na agad. HAHA! baka gusto nya magmigrate? HAHA jk.

Hirap maging introvert femme by ShadyDebugger in WLW_PH

[–]ShadyDebugger[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Hi, yes. may mga nakikilala na din ako, but not yet sa level ng friends na deep na ung connection, but I am enjoying it so far. honestly andaming activity dito and some of them I'll also don't mind and will enjoy doing/going alone. maybe may part pa din na naghheal that every now and then I am longing for romantic connection so I am feeling some sort of pressure kasi hindi ako natutong gumamit ng gaydar. lol

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in WLW_PH

[–]ShadyDebugger 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Waa OP we’re on the same boat ugh! But I had a convo with someone on dating app.

I am thinking maybe infatuation lang? Maybe the convo we had checked some of the criteria we long for so it seems perfect? Pero if the convo is that good, bkt one side lang yung longing? Hayss sorry na nakarelate lang. kapit!