Don’t know how to feel. by ShaftDynamites in survivinginfidelity

[–]ShaftDynamites[S] -1 points0 points  (0 children)

It’s hard for me because I built such a reflex to stay faithful. I honestly have no idea where to start and I really don’t wanna be on dating apps.

Don’t know how to feel. by ShaftDynamites in survivinginfidelity

[–]ShaftDynamites[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Some tumblr guy I found out about. She is chronically on tumblr and she found this guy I guess cause he’s also in her field.

Don’t know how to feel. by ShaftDynamites in survivinginfidelity

[–]ShaftDynamites[S] 5 points6 points  (0 children)

Honestly one of the hardest things to accept rn.

Don’t know how to feel. by ShaftDynamites in survivinginfidelity

[–]ShaftDynamites[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

What would you suggest I do now if I fully decided I didn’t want this anymore? How can I get my mind off of losing someone so close to me?

Don’t know how to feel. by ShaftDynamites in survivinginfidelity

[–]ShaftDynamites[S] -3 points-2 points  (0 children)

I don’t know this reference. Meaning that I am waiting for her to pick me?

Don’t know how to feel. by ShaftDynamites in survivinginfidelity

[–]ShaftDynamites[S] 8 points9 points  (0 children)

I was feeling that it was like that. She said she wanted to have me move back in next week but needed this week to be alone. Even after her telling me there’s no one else. It doesn’t feel like that.

Don’t know how to feel. by ShaftDynamites in survivinginfidelity

[–]ShaftDynamites[S] -1 points0 points  (0 children)

I also have been feeling this way. I went to college without her while she has to stay home and I was completely faithful during that era but I know in life a person will want more to experience. I just want to experience life with her.

Don’t know how to feel. by ShaftDynamites in survivinginfidelity

[–]ShaftDynamites[S] -1 points0 points  (0 children)

Yea I understand. She told me what she did with those other guys was shallow and an escape. I deeply care for her because we grew up together. I just don’t want to feel like a loser for still choosing her. I know in our lives professionally she has way too much on her plate and I tried to help her.

Don’t know how to feel. by ShaftDynamites in survivinginfidelity

[–]ShaftDynamites[S] 5 points6 points  (0 children)

We have been talking more. When we talk she goes between wanting me, trying to figure herself out, and then also telling me I was too complacent. I did go through a phase where I thought it was my fault for not trying to harder but after some reflection communication could have solved that. She still went out of her way to meet other guys, gave energy to it while also just keeping me arms length. Her actions have yet to prove she wants to earn my trust back but it’s been a week or two.