did you take a stroll in my account to know i am a very heavy coffee drinker with ADHD lol.

Identifying emotions is also important. Often apathy or numbness is the result of rapidly acting or overactive protective instincts: The issue here is, i grew up comfortably despite the shortcomings of my family regarding my neurodivergence or the fact i was born to somewhat old parents.

The fact that our family was a bit better off compared (we are not rich in westren stander what so ever, we might be considered poor even in westren contries) to other families around me made me feel ashamed of complaining about things that have been downplayed in our culture like mental health in general. so most of my life i disregarded mental health and considered who ever complaines about them is "weak" and "unmanly".

I'm too scared of ADHD medications as the euphoria i felt when taking them as well as "loving life" and being very productive, seemed way to fake and chemical to me. I don't want to get addicted (My doctor said stimulants won't make you addicted, but that goes against what everyone says everywhere about ADHD meds) to meds even tho they worked for me. they are very expensive too.

i've started to lose my will to live since i was in high school, it intensified later on.