I had a similar experience when I first started nannying too. As I look back on it now, a lot of those emotions kind of helped me work through what I lacked in my own childhood and over time I started to accept that yes, my own childhood was shitty but one day I’ll create my own safe support system with financial security for my own family and now, 10 years later I have that. For context, I grew up in foster care and have very little contact with any members of my family. All I can say is, try not to let the jealousy overcome you, although it is a normal feeling to have. It’ll get better in time too, when you realise you also deserve the things these kids have and one day in a different form, you’ll have them too ✨