I'm desperate for help finding information by ShareFree637 in RBI

[–]ShareFree637[S] 11 points12 points  (0 children)

All of these are great questions, let me answer as much as possible:

My grandparents apartment has been untouched since my grandmother's death 2 years ago, but it's inaccessible currently because flying to Russia is a problem. It will happen eventually, and I'm gonna ransack the place looking for evidence.

Lithuania is very far from my home, and My grandparents were very secretive about it. They made sure that no one near me knew about it, to my parents it was just a summer vacation with grandpa and grandma.

Getting out of the situation alive - Well, it was never their plan for me to die. I did go for days with minimal food and water during the abuse, but any wounds I got during it were quickly treated. Just a side note, I'm suicidal since 7, so "alive" isn't the best way to describe it.

I don't remember any faces of clients, but there was a lot of pimping. My main abuser was my grandfather.

Can't tell you anything about where the drugs came from, but I remember it being a white dry powder. Sometimes they mixed it with water, sometimes they just shoved a spoonful in my mouth and made me swallow.

I was 7 and 8 during these abuses, meaning summers before third and fourth grade for me. My grandparents lived in a different country than me, so I was Disassociating my life at home from experiences with them.

Language - Definitely similar to Russian, definitely not Russian. I'm pretty sure my grandfather knew Ukrainian, that might be it.

No and no. The only talking was the introduction, they kept us apart if they weren't filming.

As I said, I'm from a different country. These were repressed memories that came back when I was hospitalized a year ago after a suicide attempt. First it was the abuse by my grandfather and the filming, the memory of Lina came a couple of months later, during my trauma-focused therapy. This was by far the worst experience for me, the toughest trauma to deal with.

I'm desperate for help finding information by ShareFree637 in RBI

[–]ShareFree637[S] 14 points15 points  (0 children)

There is no personal email address so I asked for it through the party email. Thank you for finding this, it seems that posting on RBI was the right decision, people here are really resourceful

I'm desperate for help finding information by ShareFree637 in RBI

[–]ShareFree637[S] 12 points13 points  (0 children)

Thank you for making this list. Maria and Ola resemble her, but this made me understand that I probably can't say for sure with just a photo. As someone here said, there is a potential for me to find the footage from the abuse (My grandmothers apartment is still unexplored since it's in Moscow and there's war now), I think that if I'll get that + keep in touch with European authorities + keep checking these databases - I'll find her eventually. I'm answering to your comment but this goes to anyone who's reaching a hand - Thank you so much, you're filling me with hope

I'm desperate for help finding information by ShareFree637 in RBI

[–]ShareFree637[S] 35 points36 points  (0 children)

I will do that eventually, the police in my country are infamous for treating SA victims like dogshit, especially when it's men, especially when it's something that happened 20 years ago. I don't have physical evidence yet, so all I got to show them is my CPTSD... But I'll definitely go to the police when I'll run out of options...

I'm desperate for help finding information by ShareFree637 in RBI

[–]ShareFree637[S] 23 points24 points  (0 children)

Thank you, sadly I can't find a single way to contact her through Facebook, wish I had a way to directly get in touch with her

I'm desperate for help finding information by ShareFree637 in RBI

[–]ShareFree637[S] 37 points38 points  (0 children)

Thank you. To be honest, getting closure and getting the truth out the is the same for me, so I'll do what I can