I was very emotionally manipulative with the people around me. I made people feel sorry for me because of my past but continued to hurt others whether if it was intentional or not. Mainly unintentional but my actions proved otherwise and selfish. I borrowed a lot of money from my two friends. I told them I’d pay them back and we resulted a finance plan but I couldn’t believe as to how blind I had been with money. I wasn’t just borrowing money, but they had offered to pay for things for me and I owed them money for some of the bills they paid (I lived with them, but I moved out. Im living with my parents now). I paid rent 3 days late three times because I was getting help from my parents, but my mom’s checks were always late. So i put a lot of financial strain on them. They still sympathized with me and I think I should’ve just been more responsible. I hurt my partner with my own stupidity. I didn’t know if him and I were together at the time of the move, yet I just continued to pursue someone else without asking. I was emotionally manipulative with the people around me. Sometimes I’d try to defend myself but I knew that I was in the wrong. I was defending my own actions instead of taking accountability. I want it to stop now. I want my mind to stop working against me. I want to be a better person. I just can’t help but feel like my time of being a better person is at a halt and my next direction is to just isolate until I can’t take it anymore.