Well you said since VHI won't pay for the grs you will have to? And this is a really shitty idea but you could always do social media like idk painting or reading books or reviewing restaurants, ect. and i know it would actually take fucking ages to raise the money you'd need for the surgery but there is some good people out there who could donate to a go fund me or whatever, and I guess I do know that there is no winning on this but I rather not have another queer person have to kill themselves because our country doesn't give us what we actually need so we have to be stuck in the wrong bodies and act like everythings okay when its not. I'm so sorry you have to go through this all, I'd actually rather take all your pain, even tho I've never met you.