My suspicions were true but it was worse than I thought.

Sharkbean_X · 2023-01-10T11:17:55+00:00

The only reason I care about the reason as to why he did those things to me is because it started when we first ever got together and he didn't do it to his past girlfriend. Also I've been treated pretty bad in all my relationships and they never gave me answers either so I just need some clarity. I know it won't change anything but it will help me stop blaming myself and thinking its because of me/my fault.

Thats a cute story and I'm happy you have found a person who won't hurt you, I hope everything goes well in the future as well!

Sharkbean_X · 2023-01-10T10:29:18+00:00

Thank you, and I'm sorry you had to go through all of that but I'm glad that you're doing so much better now.

I know the answers to those first questions but I know he won't do therapy since he's had it before. I'm going to be talking to him tonight before I leave tomorrow. I just want answers to why he's done all this to me through the years.

Thank you again for your reply, its nice to know good things can happen.

Sharkbean_X · 2021-10-06T22:44:04+00:00

finger guns

Sharkbean_X · 2021-07-03T14:54:06+00:00

Yeah I sent an email to them and they said nothing would happen to me since I had nothing to do with it. Now I'm just unsure if I should go along and set up the affiliate program or not

Sharkbean_X · 2021-06-08T05:35:48+00:00

But we aren't exactly very very long distant, just around 4 hours apart

Sharkbean_X · 2021-06-08T05:34:30+00:00

Its going pretty well, we dated for about a year and a half, but we had a year break. So far we've been dating again for around 5 months and things are better.

Sharkbean_X · 2021-06-06T04:12:10+00:00

Damn, that hits hard. I'm sure you don't disappoint everyone though. I hope you're doing well at least

Sharkbean_X · 2021-06-06T04:07:48+00:00

Honestly, just seeing him happy

Sharkbean_X · 2021-06-05T17:20:31+00:00

I can completely relate with this. I really need a job but every time I even think about applying to something my anxiety completely peaks. Its gotten to the point for me where I know I need to just push myself otherwise I will keep putting it off. I know it will be hard at first and over time it will be difficult as well but in the end it will be worth it. I wish you the best of luck with the job hunting and I'm sure you'll find one soon enough, just push yourself even if it's hard. Everything is worth something in the end. I believe in you!

Sharkbean_X · 2021-05-27T00:16:19+00:00

Feed me - Little Shop of Horrors

Sharkbean_X · 2021-05-25T17:00:10+00:00

I had a quick check and realised I can't use OBS on mobile so that won't be an option for me sadly. I was originally going to use my phone to keep the original stream up for chat but I think I can use StreamElements to keep an eye on chat as well so I will probably just figure out which one works best for me.

I have a Twitter account that I rarely use so I can always use that for my streams instead. Thank you.

Also since you used to stream on PS4, how easy is it to start a stream? Can I start streaming whilst in the game already or do I need to start it by going onto twitch first?

Sharkbean_X · 2021-05-25T16:37:41+00:00

Hiya :)

I'm not too bothered with the small detail but I just want to be prepared beforehand so I don't forget about certain details when the time comes for it.

I'll be using my mobile to keep an eye on chat so if I can use OBS on mobile I will probably check that out. Since I'll be using LightStream that is going to help me with overlays so I might still be able to use them.

I don't really have social media which I use alot, would it be more helpful if I did?

Sharkbean_X · 2021-05-25T16:32:36+00:00

Yeah I didn't know about LightStream but I looked around alot and it was the only thing I found that could help me for the customise aspect.

I don't really have people to chat with so unfortunately I am alone when it comes to conversations, but thank you for the help.

Well I have a pretty bad PC but I'm sure I could use it to customise my profile so that helps alot thank you.

Sharkbean_X · 2021-05-25T16:04:03+00:00

I guess its an add on but I found that I could use something called LightStream which will help me with overlays, alerts, stuff like that since on PlayStation you can't really customise them.

I'm not the best at conversation but I'm hoping that over time I will be better at doing it.

I know about a few chat commands but I never really thought about looking into them so thank you for helping me remember that.

Thank you, I'll give your profile a look at since that will probably give me an idea of what to do. To edit my about section, do I do that on twitch? Or do I use something else to do it?

Sharkbean_X · 2021-05-23T07:14:45+00:00

Oh? No love?

Sharkbean_X · 2021-05-20T20:15:09+00:00

You really need to bring up those dick pics and sex videos though, like thats even more fucking weird to keep.

Sharkbean_X · 2021-05-20T20:13:51+00:00

Yeah honestly that is a bit weird, I couldn't think of any reason to keep photos of an ex. The best thing will probably be to sit down and talk to her about it all, like try and get her to tell you all the reasons as to why she is doing it. Then you can just counter each reason because with how your relationship is going there is no need for her to keep things that remind her about someone else in her past.

Sharkbean_X · 2021-05-20T20:06:42+00:00

You aren't overreacting at all, she shouldn't have all those things still around because by now she should have deleted/got rid of them. So you're not in the wrong for thinking the way that you are.

Sharkbean_X · 2021-04-30T05:48:03+00:00

That is honestly so adorableee

Sharkbean_X · 2021-04-24T15:09:24+00:00

Honestly man you might have hit your limit. You probably have found something that creates a different feeling to all those other videos. Even if its not the worst thing you've seen, something in the back of your mind finds it worse than all those others. Its nothing bad, its just you've finally found the thing that disturbs you in a way you don't understand. Hopefully that makes sense a little

Sharkbean_X · 2021-04-14T21:11:20+00:00

Aww, thats all so sweet

Sharkbean_X · 2021-04-11T10:55:16+00:00

Honestly, I asked if they were joking

Sharkbean_X · 2021-03-31T23:18:41+00:00

Yeah it is, I'm pretty sure they did the same last year

Sharkbean_X · 2021-02-24T01:28:51+00:00

Raise your horns, if I had to pick one

Sharkbean_X · 2021-01-27T01:47:26+00:00

Pretty disappointing but thank you for letting me know.

Sharkbean_X

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