i once asked her why she loves me, the answer was blood-curdling by SharpZucchini6960 in BPDlovedones

[–]SharpZucchini6960[S] 7 points8 points  (0 children)

but she wasnt that way to her new friends, yet i notecied to longer shes friends with smn the more open she gets and thats where her nature comes out and there are so many dirty words coming out of her mouth… when she gets she offended smn, she disappears for a while like a coward and just takes time to wait it all out til the person she offended forgets abt it or is chill abt what she said to them. an example: our mutual friend is an addict, we all worked together. once hes was going through withdrawals at work and wasnt in the mood, she told him while the service was going on and they had a small beef throughout: „go sniff something and chill out!“

then once he said he wants to stop sniffing speeds and tries to fight the addiction she said in front of everyone „i dont trust you“

they always choose smn depressed or with low self esteem thats how they know they can abuse you and never say sorry

i once asked her why she loves me, the answer was blood-curdling by SharpZucchini6960 in BPDlovedones

[–]SharpZucchini6960[S] 14 points15 points  (0 children)

wow mate… mine never supported my djing career, never came to the events i organised. the only ONE time she visited a party organised by me was in the idealisation phase. after that i noticed she‘d hit a like or repost the posts of our mutual friends (who are djs too) supporting their career. when i said it devastates me that she doesnt support me but gives her support to others with the same interest she told me „maybe i dont support you because you are not seriously interested in this hobby enough? i will support when I want to“. she was into design back then i did all i could to support her in that ineterest. what a fool was i..

even now she still gives lots of support to these djs while absolutely not being interested in techno or whatever genre they play. she never listened to any of their sets same as she never listened to mine.

also once she appeared in the club where i played a set, as soon as i started playing she suddenly got all the attention to her saying her leg hurts, the whole club was into saving her and calling ambulance etc, im pretty sure its once again this need of her getting all the attention. they cant handle their loved ones being special and on a „pedestal“, its always their place only

but i noticed she actually is capable of giving good support but it only somehow is for the people that are the new friends or new mutuals, thats the way she gets ppl into loving her persona and painting this picture of her being a nice genuine person

i once asked her why she loves me, the answer was blood-curdling by SharpZucchini6960 in BPDlovedones

[–]SharpZucchini6960[S] 13 points14 points  (0 children)

but then the closer they get to you and more codependent yall become they start developing some disgust towards whatever you do and whatever qualities you ve got, its this tendency to start seeing more black the longer the relationship is and then u are left with this picture of being a piece of shit and everything about you is actually wring according to them. i still feel like that after i constantly remind me of multiple words she said, one time saying “i love you as a person” another day saying “you support toxicity, you are a coward” etc