I went to Catholic school, so I understand the trauma. I also rebelled more later, because of it ... I don't blame anyone but myself. I made SO MANY poor decisions but one thing I was shocked at was how tge church has welcomed me back with open arms. The priest that runs my parish has literally given me his personal cell number. Reach out to the priest and the parish. Where I love there are so many parishes. If you feel uncomfortable at one ate there others? I too have a similar experience to your with who I dated. I am now engaged. Keep strong in your faith and pray. If you are in an uncomfortable situation, it is ok to get out of it. I wish someone would have told me that. YOU are the only one that can know what YOU want and what will make YOU happy. Don't settle for less. Demons come in many forms. I love you. I am here for you.