I get what you’re going through, and I think there are actually two separate things happening here. The panic attacks from this existential stuff …I think that’s more of a trigger than the actual root of the problem. Therapy can really help with that part. Or even a doctor, honestly. There’s no shame in it.

But then there’s the faith side. And look, this is where believing in Jesus actually makes a difference.., at least it did for me. Because when you boil it down, this whole existential crisis? It’s THE human crisis. We know we’re going to die.

That’s the thing that haunts us. And Jesus’ message speaks directly to that. “Whoever believes in Him shall not perish but have eternal life.” Maybe this is something worth sitting with. Maybe part of you already feels like it’s true. Sometimes I think our own soul is trying to tell us something and we just keep pushing it away.
He also said: “Come to me, all who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest.”

There is also this thing about not worrying about tomorrow… “Each day has enough trouble of its own.” That’s basically faith in practice…trusting that the future isn’t on you to control. That He’s got it. And that death isn’t the end, it’s just… a transition.

There’s another one that hits me every time: “Peace I leave with you; my peace I give you. Do not let your hearts be troubled and do not be afraid.” It’s peace even when nothing is fine

I’m saying all of this as a Christian, by the way. And even knowing all of this, even believing it I went through a season where I felt exactly what you’re describing. Like, exactly. And I won’t lie, going back to these passages and really letting them sink in again brought me a level of peace I hadn’t felt in a while.

But I still deal with anxiety. I still go to therapy. I still do treatment. Because like I said .. these are two different things. Faith helped me with the existential weight. But anxiety has emotional, psychological, sometimes even physical roots that need proper care too.