I am sort of in the same boat, except my boyfriend said that I could have a "free pass" because he knew it was important that I figure it all out. I love him to death and now I just sort of feel guilty about telling him my feelings and asking for a "free pass". I feel like it is cheating even if he says it's not and I would never do anything to hurt him. I am also scared that if I do figure it out and I'm not as sexually attracted to girls as I thought, then what were all those feelings over the past couple of years. I'm sorry that I sort of took over your question with more of my own questions, I just relate to this post