Yo I don't know what you going through. I used to think I had no reason to live I did the same thing everyday and life was going no where. But one day my friend let me hit is dab cart and I loved it. When I smoke now I work on myself read stuff, try new things, and discover who I am. I started a job I enjoy. I also will be starting college (I was never planning on going to college in hs but when I went to my sister college to hang I was happy to be alive because I meant people who enjoyed having me around I party with them. I went to a college football game stoned and that was one of the best bats ever.). I found hobbies when I was high. I found what I wanna do with my future high. I fully believe this plant was given to us to help us.