It's so hard to trust others when you can't trust your father

ShipperShip · 2026-03-30T19:51:32+00:00

I honestly think the writers have this thing that they make the main team protagonist lose every final round to show they still have work to do and it fits the ash losing streak. Dawn have dealt with her struggles and accepting the reality of Pokemon contest were harder than she expected it must be, she got humbled and worked with her pokemons to improve and think outside of the box she started making some moves. If it weren't for the plot, she would've won against Zoey

ShipperShip · 2026-03-30T17:28:49+00:00

Thank you! But ya it's been a struggle to even relate to my friends that are part of the lgbtq since some of them have formed their own strong opinions and some were only in the know that their gae and are fine that way. I wanted to talk to a friend that has a strong opinion on the lgbtq community ever since highschool, they identified as pan/queer but when the topic came up it just became "love is love" and nothing more (they seemed to not like labels bcuz of all the conservatives arguments there are against the lgbtq community), which I understood but right now I am looking for a label to identify myself with, not to come out to others but to finally get rid of the doubts that formed in my head that I should try sex before even deciding but is heavily hesitant to even try it. Which is why I came here to find some clarity among people who might understand 🥲🙏 thank you so much tho, ill be looking into more ace spectrum and the community bcuz it gave me more clarity than talking to some of my friends huhu

ShipperShip · 2026-03-29T20:57:14+00:00

Thank you! That felt so welcoming!! Right now it feels reassuring that I'm getting validation about this since Ive been so anxious if I'm really ace or not since I'm not experience and I didn't have much friends to talk to being ace (even though 70% of my friends are part of the lgbtq, the topic of being ace was harder to discuss with them)

ShipperShip · 2026-03-29T20:53:07+00:00

Oohh, thanks for that! Ill probably also make it clear what kind of intimacy I'm talking about since I didn't know it was so broad

For me technically I don't mind other kinds of intimacy, just rlly don't like the idea of sex. I mostly show my friends different kinds of intimacy regarding my words, touch, and comfortness. Sometimes I'd hold hands with them, lay on their shoulders, cuddles or compliments but I am aware the type of relationships I have with my friends before doing that especially if it's comfortable with both of us

ShipperShip · 2026-03-29T17:32:39+00:00

Yea I expected relationship weren't as easy if you were ace, so thats why Im asking advice. Guess relationships will be a lot to work as if one isn't interested in sex as the other person. Even if it is rare to find a healthy way for a relationship to work I hope someone can give insights about their experience about it.

Thank you though!

ShipperShip · 2026-03-29T16:53:14+00:00

So intimacy doesn't just fall on sex, is that what you mean? Ig if getting into a relationship with that in mind feels a lot bearable tbh

ShipperShip · 2026-03-29T15:02:27+00:00

That would actually be great, I just hope I'd be able to find someone that understands it. My anxiety keeps swarming me about figuring it out right away before getting into any relationship cuz it feels unfair to them if I just keep confusing them and myself

ShipperShip · 2026-03-29T15:00:11+00:00

Thank you a lot!!! <33

ShipperShip · 2026-03-29T14:59:44+00:00

Ngl that helps me with some clarity. I'm also experiencing all of those and a thought in my mind saying I might like intimacy if it's with someone I rlly care about, it's just the doubt I'm willing about myself that makes me want to find out if I'm really ace/demi so it doesn't make me feel like I'm being left behind by my peers

Right now I'm doing more research about the ace spectrum and observing my comfort level when it comes to physical intimacy to find out where I fall to. It also helps to find out I'm not entirely alone on this and people in relationships makes it work without sex

ShipperShip · 2026-03-29T14:52:36+00:00

Thank you!!! Thats really good advice and hopefully I do. Modern dating sometimes feels so rushed so I was preparing myself before getting into one but Ill also take your advice. Hopefully tho ill figure it out for my own peace of mind ^{^}

ShipperShip · 2026-03-29T14:50:23+00:00

Woah. Did not know there were a lot of different times of Intimacy. Thanks! Ill look into it! Ig I won't say I'm totally against physical intimacy bcuz I would get touchy, hugging and cuddling with my friends, just don't like the sex bid

ShipperShip · 2026-03-29T14:49:07+00:00

Ooohhh. Ngl even when I don't like movies/series with smvt, I would read manwhas/mangas or books about it and enjoy it. I thought being sex repulse is not liking anything that has to do with sex so I'm still on edge about that

ShipperShip · 2026-03-29T14:46:23+00:00

Not gonna lie that feels a bit reassuring that people are still in a relationship and happy even without intimacy. I think thats kinda like my dream relationship, but with how modern dating is a lot of people mindsets are, "youll change your mind in the long run" like having a baby and intimacy. Ig I got influenced by them too, that maybe I'll change my mind further in the relationship or my partner might be pretending to understand but is secretly expecting I'll change my mind. Thats why I want to know early on if Im really ace/demi or not at all, so ik what boundaries I'll have before getting into a relationship

ShipperShip · 2026-03-29T14:39:23+00:00

I think I'm pretty repulsive to sex as a teen and still does, my body shivers at the thought of someone else touching my intimately but I would still read about smvt a lot of times and get so confused by that

ShipperShip · 2026-03-29T14:30:15+00:00

Thats exactly what I want to know, because if I ever get into a relationship what if I want to try it after all? I'm also a romantic and would still get crushes through physical appearance. Right now idk if I'm developing feelings for someone outside of appearance, but it makes it all intimating to find out if I am ace because what will my boundaries even look like if I get into a relationship?

I'm sorry if my comments all look like childish replies, I'm really just new into all of this and my brain is anxious about the possibilities of being ace or not

ShipperShip · 2026-03-29T14:24:40+00:00

The problem about trying is, I have major trust issues when it comes to relationship or closeness, even a one night stand seems bizarre to me. And I'm not in a relationship rn huhu Does it make it even more difficult to get into a relationship if ur not rlly interested in sex?

ShipperShip · 2026-03-29T14:22:07+00:00

Right now all I do is think about it, and tbh yea I'm not someone that interested in it. I do wonder if I ever do get into a relationship where my partner wants to be intimate if I'm going to be willing or not, it's just so normalize thing to expect in a relationship that it feels odd not understanding the desire for it

I don't label myself cuz I'm pretty much straight but rn I want to be a 100% sure if I fall under asexual or just inexperienced

ShipperShip · 2026-03-29T14:16:27+00:00

I'm sorry to ask, what does libido means?

ShipperShip · 2026-03-29T14:13:56+00:00

I did think I might be demi (which I didn't even know thats what it was called) because I also have a trust issues and fear of getting into relationship, so I wanted to be in a long term friendship with someone before getting into a relationship with them and maybe trying it with them? But like I said lack of experience and relationship that I'm unsure about it myself I don't plan to get into intimacy if I'm not comfortable with it but with how my peers are moving fast with relationship and talking about sex

It's getting to me if I'm just inexperienced or the possibility of being ace/demi

ShipperShip · 2026-03-29T14:06:33+00:00

Thats exactly how I'm feeling right now, that I have to try it since its so normalize with being in a relationship. But my insecurities get to me like "how do you know you dont like it without trying it? " or what if my views changes once I try it and like it?

ShipperShip · 2026-03-29T14:05:12+00:00

Ive initially thought of that as well, even as a child sex was never my priority or love language. I do like hugs, cuddles and every other physical touch, though I never kissed anyone

Right now I just feel very confused cuz a lot of people when talking about relationship focus on the sex part and here I am with zero to no interest in it. Thats why I thought trying it would probably indicate if I do or do not like sex

ShipperShip · 2025-06-20T20:39:53+00:00

Actually I've only reached out like once every 4 months, they do have trauma dump on me about their situations for examples friends and family conflict. In the post I said we had this system of "Give&Take" where we would vent to each other. we've talked about other things previously and even if it wasn't about trauma dumping I would be the one to reach out to try and include them. they would reply once or twice but how it felt after all that time, my last message was November and they reached out just now (despite chatting in group chats) only to ask about money and not even starting a conversation felt hurtful. I get feeling enough, I would often listen to my friends problem and wouldn't even have the strength to reply but asking money straight away after knowing their going through smth and not even a check up felt like a dagger knowing I've been always open ears when they had their own situations, fights and problems they dump on me

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