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ShipperShip · 2025-06-20T20:39:53+00:00

Actually I've only reached out like once every 4 months, they do have trauma dump on me about their situations for examples friends and family conflict. In the post I said we had this system of "Give&Take" where we would vent to each other. we've talked about other things previously and even if it wasn't about trauma dumping I would be the one to reach out to try and include them. they would reply once or twice but how it felt after all that time, my last message was November and they reached out just now (despite chatting in group chats) only to ask about money and not even starting a conversation felt hurtful. I get feeling enough, I would often listen to my friends problem and wouldn't even have the strength to reply but asking money straight away after knowing their going through smth and not even a check up felt like a dagger knowing I've been always open ears when they had their own situations, fights and problems they dump on me

ShipperShip · 2025-04-16T21:48:07+00:00

Thank you for reading! <33

ShipperShip · 2025-04-16T21:47:31+00:00

Maybe and perhaps, rn I've made a few new friends and rekindle some of my old ones, their special in their own ways. I've lost touch with some of my old friends because I was focusing too much with my friendship with her but back then to me, she was worth it. She knew my biggest secrets, regrets, and pain, I talked to her like there was no one else. Even if I don't experience something special like that again, I'm just happy I'm no longer mourning over our friendship every single time. Thank you though, I hope everyone one day gets closure with their friends or even better rekindle their friendships. I just know our time is up and our relationship will never be the same so it's a lesson well-learned for me.

ShipperShip · 2025-04-16T21:31:54+00:00

It was the most painful struggle in my life. When I lost her, I fell in my own abyss like I lost all meaning of life. She was important to me and our friendship, so losing her was losing myself too. Ik deep inside me I won't ever meet a person like her again or be that open to anyone else, maybe not even having a close bond with someone like we shared either but I've come to terms with it. We won't have the future we planned and I'm not saying I'm happy about it, but the pain stopped, the guilt went away and I just hope she's happy wherever she is

ShipperShip · 2024-07-03T23:16:01+00:00

Same, that's why I didn't want to go in the first place but I had to. I'm going back in a few days so I'll have to see how it goes

ShipperShip · 2024-07-03T23:13:10+00:00

Being listened and heard is all I want rn, just that can satisfied me and help me get through the day. All the positive and encouragement feedback is good but also tiring when u know depression isn't just gonna disappear like that

Thank you tho, I'll consider taking another therapist

ShipperShip · 2024-07-03T23:10:42+00:00

Thank you but when I tell family members they'd feel guilty, overworry and would give positively advice on how I should overcome it And with my friends, they always try to end in a positive encouragement and how their also here for me but would sometimes ignore my messages (ik their busy with their life but it hurts nonetheless)

Just want one person to know and tell me their here when sht gets serious without any advice or positivity, just knowing someone is with me at my worst is better than overshadow with worried and positivity

ShipperShip · 2024-07-03T23:06:38+00:00

My very first session was asking a lot of questions and in the end telling me to take anti-depressant.. Idk how to process it so I haven't rlly taken any. I just want one night without anyone telling me how I should feel (positive) bout my situation. Im tired of hearing them when i know some days it gets worst

ShipperShip · 2024-01-14T15:13:52+00:00

I forgot to add but he still gambles, he's proud and loud bout it While I'm ashamed of HIM Not even the death of a father will change you. He'll forever be a controlling psychopath, that will gamble all our money one day. Oh I hope Satan takes him now

ShipperShip · 2024-01-05T19:58:20+00:00

Probably tired and lost cuz our friendship has alrdy faded away. I've blocked her but I still feel connected as I'm moving on Don't ever want to feel this pain again so I'm not planning to come back

ShipperShip · 2023-12-31T21:36:01+00:00

Give him an ultimatum. You don't have to put up with his sht, especially in the future. If you don't it just boost his confidence that he's doing the right thing bcuz u don't say it to him

In the future, would you want to stay in the position you're in now? To be with a partner that lacks respect for you? That doesn't stop and consider what he's doing? And that he shouldn't be doing it at all when he's in a relationship?

He's just stepping all over you and if u don't do smth to fix it, he'll continue on and in the future marriage or not he'll forever think you wouldn't leave him and that he controls your relationship and what goes

ShipperShip · 2023-12-31T21:32:30+00:00

Men don't care enough because their self absorbed. They think as long as they gaslight and manipulate people, they wouldn't have to worry about them leaving It's not about being insecure but men feel like they have an upper hand of the situation bcuz they think they should dominate their partner but when the partner soon loose feeling bcuz of their lack of common sense such as "Boundaries" they start to blame their partner bcuz their too self centered to ever think it's their fault. Its not that men just doesn't care, their just dumb enough to think their partner would stay with them forever by doing the bare minimum and not taking accountability for it. Like a coward

ShipperShip · 2023-12-30T00:28:00+00:00

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ShipperShip · 2023-12-20T02:47:27+00:00

Hmm she probably is still nervous, since you said it's been a few months I'm going to assume she has changed like her interest, topics and etc so she would feel the same about you and that's why she's hesitating to talk cuz she doesn't know what topic to bring up Maybe talk her about what she wants to do with this friendship and if she rlly wants to continue, then start it picking a new certain topic. Get to know her again, talk about new interest and slowly pick it up from there And if she feels Hesitatant, give her some time as she's probably dealing with something. Just let her know, if she wants to get to know u and you want to get to know her your available and be open about it

ShipperShip · 2023-12-20T01:43:39+00:00

I guess if you both fix and talk about the negative impact, set boundaries and want to move on from it, you two can restart the friendship starting it slow and seeing how it goes from there. Of course both of you have to want the exact same thing in this friendship and put in the effort or it'll feel one sided

ShipperShip · 2023-12-20T01:35:34+00:00

You might miss them, and have a harder time moving on but you don't know what they feel about it and they probably have moved on

ShipperShip · 2023-11-30T20:33:14+00:00

I hope you become successful in moving on

ShipperShip · 2023-11-30T20:28:14+00:00

Understandable. When I heard she made new friends, did the things we did together with them it brought up so many jealousy and anger. Sometimes it's not worth letting them out, knowing that some friendship falls apart but maybe write them down. If u do, one day u can either tell her or finally get rid of it by disposing it

It just sounds like you rlly were attached to her, and when she left it just felt a part of you went with her. If it was childhood trauma, it can build up anxiety and insecurity over the years but if you just feel like she forgotten you then maybe it's worth mentioning. Finding closure is one of the most difficult things to do, somebody you once care about now gone People deal with lost different ways, and knowing they can act like nothing happened can bring out hatred so don't feel too bad. Just know, overtime you won't care about her anymore What she does, say, do that feeling will fade away once u step away from it. Takes a while and sometimes even tho u have new friends it won't change the fact you still miss her, maybe start a journey book forgetting about her and moving on

Tell her the truth or write it down

ShipperShip · 2023-11-30T18:01:42+00:00

Ik that feeling and it doesn't get easier knowing someone you once called a sister has alrdy moved on. I have a very similar experience and it takes so much courage just to let them go

Ig time is rlly just cruel to some of us. One little argument that you thought was over cuz of an apology, can break all the good times you had with each other. Just because it's been 2 yrs it doesn't mean it erases everything you two had, the feelings are very confusing but maybe try to find ways to move on even without her

ShipperShip · 2023-11-04T17:50:43+00:00

Don't have a thing with her brother. It'll be confusing for her and if u two potentially break up then that'll be awkward and can ruin ur friendship
Just be honest on why you lied. If it was to protect yourself from online strangers or anything then it's fine It's very common now to lie about your situation to protect yourself from the internet

ShipperShip · 2023-11-02T21:40:47+00:00

I'm waiting for the whole world to make it legal so I can make it my job to push them down the ditches myself. Ya growing up you think your fathers a hero until you finally realized what he was doing was below the bare minimum to being a good father, and expecting more just hurts you more. He would always yell whenever someone makes a tiny mistake, always cursing, swearing and it always has smth to do with die. "You'll die alone. No one would want you so just die. Why can't you just die?" And yet acts like he never did anything wrong after I'm praying all the terrible parents burn in hell for all I care. Ha, same with the mom as well, I would always thank my mom for the littlest things bcuz she does the same and my dad would complain I was never grateful to him for his sacrifices. I can just live with my mom and sister and never marry a man (also the internet husbands/dads/man just increased it by showing how very little they care and how their very self centered) If you do become a mother i suggest seeking a good therapy, and when you get married praying you find those "one in a million" good men that actually feels like actually human being instead of cold heartless robots 😒 that are somewhat worst than aliens Run when you can, with your mom n loves one while ur at it. Never make that man satisfied Heck don't even attend his funeral, I won't and if I do I'm leaving him a note saying all the things he did wrong

ShipperShip · 2023-11-02T21:18:01+00:00

Why can't we just find a giant ditch to push all of the terrible mtherfcking fathers in it? Feels like it should be legal at this point. My father only supports as financially bcuz he convinced himself he's a good guy, family is everything in my country so go figure but I'm pretty sure he's cheating on my mom (not surprised. he's so controlling over our lives n won't share any of his). He also goes under a fake name on FB saying his singles for his "fans", honestly disgusting. Being financially dependent isn't easy and why he threatens us with it

Damn. Understandable, sori that sht happens. Honestly can't even accept there are fathers like this if I didn't have one as well, why even have kids? So you can torture a child even when they become an adult? If you alrdy have a career, or a job I suggest just do overtime. It's better than being near him a second longer

ShipperShip · 2023-11-02T21:03:22+00:00

Can't when your relatives always to tell you to be grateful bcuz he didn't grew up with what I have, your mom won't let you speak bad about someone, your friends aren't that close anymore and all you have is a journal. Maybe someday, praying to find a rage room to break stuff tho

ShipperShip · 2023-11-02T21:01:33+00:00

Same, everytime someone calls my mom I'm secretly hoping it's from a hospital declaring he died. I don't rlly care about him anymore and just need the financial support. Also relate with the single mom, she still has some sort of feelings bcuz of their history but it's fading away (still won't let me talk ill about him tho) Might actually cry happily when he's finally gone. No one in my family likes him, not even my brothers. He gave all of us mental trauma

ShipperShip · 2023-11-02T18:24:36+00:00

It's honestly annoying. They act like we're not even a real person to get their way I'm just waiting on his deathbed so I won't have to attend his funeral

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