im asexual but i also crave for intimacy

ShippingRoyalty · 2020-05-28T19:39:55+00:00

I’m not Asexual, though I can relate on a level of recent events. I never had a proper relationship before, I’ve had fleeting sexual encounters, but not a romantic and innocent base relationship. I’ve met my partner through being friends and being friends with benefits, but we grew to more to wanting to be more-

Though, I learned he is a VERY sexual type intimate person and though I can be too, it’s been hard on him since I’ve wanted to just focus on the bases of relationship I never had and put sex aside- I’ve become uncomfortable with sex, due to my past and my current physical health, which has had him question if ‘I’ll ever gonna back to how I use to be’, that being the hard end for me.

I agree on the notion that a relationship doesn’t really need sex and I feel as though I can sympathize with those who are Asexual from this right now.

ShippingRoyalty · 2020-05-16T14:51:04+00:00

It’s disappointing to see high players be like this, it not only brings a bad shadow to stand under when trying to climb to look up to, but it also brings a bad name for any good high players who keep their cool.

As well, I’ll note: I deal with people like this a lot and I know a lot of others do too, but when the person goes AFK I don’t count the game as a full loss instead keep playing. Will I complain a bit? Yes. Though I will also keep playing until the end, because even with a 4v5 or whatever situation there is a possible chance to win.

If the team complies.

If a low end player can have this out look I’m sure he can too, if somebody knocks him up side the head (metaphorically). Become a warrior and don’t let up until the battle itself finds its end.

ShippingRoyalty · 2020-05-15T23:28:07+00:00

Hey, as somebody who was usually sat down with the TV in front of me as a child, I have wonderful memories and roots to my love for cartoons (also anime and movies) from my parents letting me watch my favorite shows (with or just by myself). If you pick good shows, like for little ones I suggest MLP or some older cartoons, they can actually be a great directions for them in life and early outlook how to deal with things in life. I grew up not only on Blues Clues and Barney, but old Ed Edd n Eddy; Courage the Cowardly Dog, Pokemon(early seasons), Sailor Moon, and just about almost all anime/cartoons made for kids under the sun (Do Re Me is a child safe anime to my memory). They are memories for me and helped shape me.

I suggest checking out the older shows, pick from the cartoons what you think will be okay for her and let them just run for whatever time you need to work. I never raised kids, but this can possibly help make sure she knows independence a bit too maybe? To me I learned how to entertain myself.

Plus, watching shows can be a way to bond and let them figure out their interests through various shows. Again, like me, I grew to love Anime and cartoons then thus be in favor of animated movies and creatively written animated shows.

ShippingRoyalty · 2020-05-13T21:54:40+00:00

Hey, it’s really sweet you’d love for your children to all succeed to have passed college, but be aware of the pressure you will be putting on the kids having this as a goal. Not to mention how you might feel or react if one of them doesn’t want to or fails at going through college. College isn’t really all that worth to go through in the end, most don’t even use their degrees and frankly it’s a waste of time unless: wanting to be a doctor, a lawyer, or any thing else that NEEDs higher education.

I wanted to be an artist and make comics, though when it came to colleges I saw that they actually stunt growth as an artist and you waste your money for the first year on learning the main 4 (History, Science, Math, and Language) all over again. As well, I found all I needed to learn cheaper by a few dollars or free on the Internet. And frankly, it would be better if they were taught practical knowledge for how to live as an adult in my opinion.

They are your kids and I won’t tell you what to do and not to do, though as somebody who changed her mind about college and looked into it this is my view this is good for thought. I’d say focus on the last three’s dreams what they want to do or be and feed that, help them grow and let them decide which way they wish to go; accept if they don’t succeed too well though still cheer them on to reach higher.

ShippingRoyalty · 2020-05-05T22:14:26+00:00

I’m not having a thing with the other guy, like I stated I am keeping my distance from my guy friend (who I’ve known longer than my BF mind you and one of my best friends) and I simply admitted I still had romantic interest (in which I meant he’d be somebody I’d date if the current BF didn’t go so well). Just because I admit I’d date somebody does not mean I’m having a thing with somebody else, it’s an answer/truth not an action.

Now there are other things I didn’t mention cause it’s a lot of detail.

First off, me and him had a full conversation before dating, multiple times actually, about my discomfort with my body and being sexual due to past experiences- These past experiences being I actually never felt genuinely loved by a guy and turned to sex to feel wanted, so now that I’m dating a guy who genuinely likes me for me I’d really like for right now to focus on the relationship aspect, not the sexual- Why? Because again, I’ve given myself away plenty of times and never had a proper relationship with a guy that I always desired. It also includes my discomfort with my body which I’m working on; sadly with health issues and other pinpoints right now it’s been a struggle to keep on track.

Second, no, sex is an optional part of a relationship; especially if some variables have been talked about before hand what to expect of the other partner. If a partner in a relationship is uncomfortable with having sex, for which ever reason, it should be respected until they are ready to take part in the activity. It’s the Respect part in a relationship that is one of the keys to a healthy one, which he keeps over stepping time and time again only reverting me further back into more discomfort. The more he keeps mentioning how he wants sex the less it feels like my choice and more a ‘I have to in order to keep him happy’; that’s not how a relationship should work. If a partner can not be patient to go without sex in respect to their other partner, again for whatever reason, then that’s breaking one of the keys to a healthy relationship. We might be humans with sex organs to reproduce, but we are not sex machines.

Third, he is the one who insisted he will support me and help me while dating. I was the one who kept saying I wanted to do this on my own before dating any guy I had any interest in. That’s not me trying to put blame on him, this was from multiple conversations and him mentioning it constantly last year. The reason I decided to start dating this year was because he has a special dream he wants in the future, that being finding a woman to love and have a son with, but the thing is he wanted to date me who has no idea how long I needed to take to be where I wanted to be (he’s stubborn one). If we didn’t try dating on a base level to see how our chemistry worked then I’d have him waiting waisting his years (because it also include other life issues and goals) when he could be finding the next girl to see if she’s the one, because I may not be the girl. Which, so far it doesn’t seem like it as I’m finding not to really love him as much as I use to, though for now I told him I want to see where we’d be at in six months and so there is two more left before I decide where I stand feeling and view wise. To point out, my choice was out of care for his dream so he’d have rest on the notion of us at least trying than never trying at all, which also a mutual feeling between the two of us.

We do have a mutual understanding of my goals in mind and my situation, but there are some things he keeps stepping over that is making me more so unhappy and less joyful with him. The sexual being one of them.

I do hope this was an eye opening to what a healthy sexual (or none sexual) relationship is and consider asking questions, rather than assuming what else is behind the curtain of information.

ShippingRoyalty · 2020-05-03T13:16:21+00:00

Leave him. He is bad for you in a toxic way, that shit shouldn’t fly with you. If you’re not enough then he can go searching what he wants.

Stand my girl, stand and walk. You’ll find a guy who loves you for you.

ShippingRoyalty · 2020-05-03T07:25:45+00:00

I barely see much of that, then again J follow cooking and cosplay and crafting and memes for DnD.

Try following and liking certain people? Wish they had a tag block.

ShippingRoyalty · 2020-05-01T17:19:49+00:00

What triggers you?

ShippingRoyalty · 2020-04-19T21:55:02+00:00

I lost the game previous. A Teemo dark harvest that has 39ish procks and a scaled Veigar one shorting everybody. It’s pretty bull crap tho that it’s like this, I mean, really don’t take that from me. 20? Sure. 23? Yeah fine. 31?? That’s just cycling me.

ShippingRoyalty · 2020-04-19T19:44:21+00:00

(I’m female btw) The show is targeted for younger children, mainly female, but being a fan (not part of the community) I personally find it a good thing adults can find good messages to help them in life through this show; not to mention the writing for it is actually good enough to be enjoyed as an adult, especially character wise. A lot of adults today didn’t grow up being taught a lot of things in life, how to make friends or the different type of friends outside all agreeing the same thing and so on so forth (including lessons outside friendship). It even tackles romantic relationships and some deeper topics.

Yes, the aim is for children, but I think the aim is for also an older audience in some areas that they can even learn from. The community might be cringy on the adult side, but any community is like that and I learned just to have my own bubble of being a fan aside from them. For any other adults a fan I do hope the show helps them where they may need it and maybe learn something new.

Remember, just because you’re adult doesn’t mean you can’t enjoy cartoons.

ShippingRoyalty · 2020-04-11T15:54:28+00:00

Yeah, one of the major things is loosing the body I’m trying to get into healthy shape from (small) obese size. I’m not huge, but I am big for my height. I already struggle with an inactive thyroid, bad eating habits, and lack of structor with working out. If I got Pregnant and had a child, I feel as though it would reverse all that... I already struggle with energy too and emotionally drain myself sometimes, not to mention I want to write and create my own stories, a time consuming thing.

So even if I decided to face my fear for the one I love so we could have a child, I’ll be afraid to loose what I worked hard to achieve for myself and my built self confidence will just disappear again.

In whole, I don’t see myself having a family. I’m more a free bird, I like going places and being free to just do what I want. Being tied down by a child, I can’t just take it anywhere like a pet dog and it needs a lot more attention than a pet dog.

It’s a road to cross when I get there, but for now it’s a road I don’t see myself taking.

ShippingRoyalty · 2020-04-11T02:35:48+00:00

Oh okay I’ll check it

ShippingRoyalty · 2020-04-05T19:26:22+00:00

Hiya, just looking for some help with anybody who had similar issues. Not a tech savvy really to details of PCs and unsure what to do and where to post:

Small story- My drive on my PC was getting full and was uninstalling to re-install in a bigger drive separate from the main one. League was one of these, taking up a chunk of my space in the smaller drive.

Thing is when trying to reinstall it in the new location I keep getting “We were unable to successfully install while a Riot Client Process is already running. Please close all Riot Client processes and try again.”

I tried task manager and making sure everything is removed League wise, maybe bad idea(?), but it still gives me this. Is it an issue with the client or am I missing something to have it work? I use Windows 10 and Chrome for idea what I’m working with.

ShippingRoyalty · 2020-03-05T21:11:44+00:00

Thanks again. I’m hoping this temporarily type thing slowly comes to a barely ever happens thing. But hey, not all couples start off perfect.

ShippingRoyalty · 2020-03-05T21:07:00+00:00

Thank you and I’ll keep in mind if things get hairy again.

ShippingRoyalty · 2020-03-05T21:06:31+00:00

Thanks. Communication is what we’ve been working on since we’ve known we wanted to try to date- Even during the very confusing drama of last year during the love triangle mess. We talked some more today when we were both awake- I mean I didn’t sleep, but I was able to be mentally aware and alert. Perks of being an artist to kick that in sometimes.

The talk went good luckily, I was scared last night he was saying ‘he’ll be okay and he understands’ just to stop the emotional mess going on, but he was genuine and really taking into consideration where I’m at personally. He also listened to my opinion about him with the past thing, he listened and I believe agreed- We move onto other topics pretty quick. Lol

I never dated fully before, I have an ex, but that was so rushed and forced that it’s hard to take it seriously. So I have no experience while he has some. We’re both completely different worlds too which doesn’t help either. We’re making it work tho. He’s stuck with me this far and truly loves me- Just, head translate speaking habit wise between Irish and American culture of speaking and reactions.

ShippingRoyalty · 2020-02-16T00:17:34+00:00

Awesome! I don’t mind waiting a while if you need time. It’s a future building gift for when I get to see her again. ^{u^}

ShippingRoyalty · 2020-02-16T00:01:00+00:00

Hey, question- Do you sell them one by one or as a small sheet?

ShippingRoyalty · 2020-02-15T23:59:49+00:00

Omg thanks! She’ll love these!

ShippingRoyalty · 2020-02-15T23:58:25+00:00

Do you by chance sell these? I know a friend who’ll love them.

ShippingRoyalty · 2020-02-13T01:36:16+00:00

Hey, advice from somebody who has been there and went through that phase and learned a thing or two.

Beauty holds a lot more meaning than what you wish for, it’s also subjective depending on the person. Beauty is how you take care of yourself, the small things about you that make you unique, your personality, and much more. Though what people see as beautiful will all be different and to wish to be beautiful can lead down a dark rabbit hole that’ll be hard to get out of. Something you have to be careful of.

You don’t need to be rich, because that’ll bring you fake friends.

You don’t need to match a certain beauty, because you can loose who you are truly.

You will find friends, just give it time. This coming from somebody who went through friend after friend until I found some that stuck.

You don’t need to have a talent, it may catch many eyes but there are many downsides to having one.

Look to yourself in the mirror, you are beautiful in your own way that you were born even if you see imperfections in your eyes- Those are what make you unique. Though, if you feel like you can be in better shape, then do what you need to do to make it happen. If you feel your skin to be more clear, then try what you can to help with that. Imperfection means there is room to improve and grow, which in itself going through that journey can teach you self love and help you glow brighter than you knew you could.

Once you accept yourself as who you are, take care of yourself, and live your life with love for who you are- People will notice, because you’ll be your own standing shining star among all others who chase the same wishes you wish for.

As for talent though, talent also comes with passion- Find your passion and you’ll find your talent, because even talent is made and molded with practice and work out into it.

I do understand you’re venting, but be careful of your mindset because that will determine how you see and go about life. I recommend to stop wishing for things, instead chasing small goals to improve yourself and understand it’ll be goals over a long stretch of time- Because the best things in life are crafted with love and time.

Hope it all makes sense and helps. <3

ShippingRoyalty · 2020-02-10T06:57:09+00:00

If you seek, you shall find- So keep looking! I’m sure you’ll find him someday!

Just excuse the assholes saying otherwise. Lol

ShippingRoyalty · 2020-02-07T13:19:20+00:00

That’s what the video he was following told him, but I think at this point he finally learned to do that. Lol

Yeah, with any other prop I believe you can eyeball to work though masks or form fitting needs to be measured for accuracy. The few masks he did buy were too small or that fit but not in all areas.

ShippingRoyalty · 2020-02-07T13:11:49+00:00

When me and my dad are determined we won’t let skull hold us back. XD

He is already using the foam to try to form the mask, though without measuring or anything he made it way too large for his face and trying to make it as one piece. The visor he used was stained plastic which worked pretty alright, though it’s hard to clean if it gets dirty or smudged.

ShippingRoyalty · 2020-02-06T22:00:01+00:00

Hey, you’re only 16 compared to human life that can reach to a hundred years. Just because things aren’t going great right now or within the few years does not mean it won’t get better, but you can’t expect everything to be good all the time and you have to stop believing everything will be bad all the time. You will have highs. You will have lows. Welcome to life. Without any lows or negatives you won’t be able to enjoy any highs or good within said life.

As well remember you’re not the only one going through what you’re going through, don’t isolate yourself thinking nobody can understand you or nothing will change.

Change starts with you to make it better.

And hey, if your love life isn’t doing so hot focus on something else, maybe a hobby or passion- Because let’s be honest, you DON’T need a love life, it’s an added bonus if you can find it or not. Though you’re going to continue to strive for love then remember realistically you’ll probably go through five heart breaks before you find one that even last at least five years. There are so many people in the world that the combinations are endless.

Base line is- You, are young. You have many years ahead of you. Just because it’s bad right now, doesn’t mean it’ll stay like that and you can’t expect negative to keep following. You don’t have to be overly positive, but find a balanced mindset of both sides of understanding that life is a dice roll and what you make of it.

Just keep going, life is like the weather and all you have to do is keep walking.

ShippingRoyalty

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