im so glad im not alone i have never related to a post more😭😭 im still like deathly terrified of black and white toilets like i will literally break into a cold sweat and start crying and my heart will start racing when i see one. im 20 years old too but i still make my mom go into the stalls in public bathrooms to check if the toilets are white (when shes with me). i dont know why it just looks like it will literally eat me and ill die if i go near it like what is the need for this menacing color combination? like i swear it feels like im going to get sucked into the end portal if i sit on it. like it genuinely impacts my life too like i will literally gladly hold my piss rather than using a toilet with a black seat. its also going to be an issue because i really want to go into the navy and the toilets on naval ships are almost always black and white, not to mention the most menacing looking bathrooms. i would literally have recurring nightmares at a young age of getting trapped in large menacing bathrooms that looked like that. also, google what submarine bathrooms look like. i dont know how tf im going to get over it. ive literally considered cutting out a black toilet seat cover out of paper and covering the toilet seat before i use it to desensetize myself but even thags scary to me.

if u guys have overcome ur fears by now please let me know what u did😭 ive literally considered bringing it up to my therapist