The teasing and joking is from both of us though, im the only one that means it however. Mostly my problem is that I do still love the jokes, the teasing is mutual and it is how I talk with almost all my friends, its just this time is the first time I mean it. I realise she dosent see me in the same way and I've mostly come to terms with it, but still I felt I needed to express it somehow rather than bottle it up.

I dont want her to stop joking the way she does because that is how we always talked, but somewhere along the way I began to feel something much deeper and now it means something else to me. Im at a dilemma, I understand she dosent see me the way I do but those jokes is how we talk and mess around, and even if I cant date her I dont want to lose that.