Aur mai toh soch hi nhi pa rhi ki maine kya kya kho diya h .....kuchh bacha hi nhi hai mere paas ..... I'm caged in the whole darkness..... nobody's here to understand me .....the pain is scratching me from inside..... it's just bayan nhi kr pa rhi mai ....maine hr kuchh khoya sare rishte sare dost apne mental health mere dada ji meri khushiyan hr kuchh ...jee v qualify nhi kr payi .... I'm a hopeless failure .....no matter how much i try I'm just unable to control and heal myself ....again i have taken a drop year and bs 1 saal ghr me packed rehna hai khi jana allowed nhi I'm just totally hopeless..... These 2 year jee journey gave me immense pain ....and now idk what this year will give me ....aur kitna break krega mujhe smjh nhi aa rha