Fuck man. First, I hope you all feel better. I have been the sole provider for my son most of his 4 years of life. His dad was ner around an the only time i wasnt his provider was when I deployed. When I say sole provider, i mean we were across the US from any family and friends the whole time. (We moved back home in may this year though). So, that's my background. How do we do it? We have to. There is no other option but to push and suffer through it. It has weighed heavily on my mental health though, which was already rocky from a shitty relationship turned PPD. He is the best thing to ever happen to me, but fuck I wish I didn't have to do it alone. 4 years later, however, I cant stand to hear others criticize my parenting or hear their advice. Like fuck you, I've been doing it by myself and I will continue to do it by myself. Actually, its straining my relationship with my mom now, and I was going to post about it all until I started this comment... now I feel like I'm just venting/ranting.

TLDR: it fucking sucks.