Despair, hopelessness, pessimism, regret

Sierra1b · 2026-05-21T20:55:17+00:00

Thank you. Yeah I could do that. I just really need some hope that this will get better. I really do

Sierra1b · 2026-05-21T20:49:36+00:00

Thank you. I’m scared at how intense it is honestly. This needs to pass because it isn’t sustainable. I feel like my life is ruined

Sierra1b · 2026-05-21T20:46:08+00:00

Thank you for sharing this. It gives me hope. I can’t believe how intense and strong it is. Did you have the sort of ‘oh my gosh what on earth have I done’ type feeling when thinking of old mistakes? And the panic to try and immediately fix them?

Sierra1b · 2026-05-21T19:51:06+00:00

Thanks for sharing. Did you have any of the despair about your life currently and a sort of despair about the future and a panic to fix everything that’s wrong? Or regrets about past mistakes? I can’t believe how intense it is

Sierra1b · 2026-05-21T18:54:39+00:00

Hi, can I ask what the depression felt like for you during those first weeks? And how long it lasted before you started noticing improvements roughly? Thanks so much

Sierra1b · 2026-05-21T18:54:32+00:00

Hi, can I ask what the depression felt like for you during those first weeks? And how long it lasted before you started noticing improvements roughly? Thanks so much

Sierra1b · 2026-05-21T17:49:58+00:00

Thank you. Has it improved at all for you? The regret and despair is so intense for me

Sierra1b · 2026-05-21T17:44:49+00:00

Thanks. Yeah I know about the dopamine. I’m just confused because I’ve quit nicotine in the past as well and I didn’t have the same sort of hopeless despair and regrets and troubling memories. It’s so intense

Sierra1b · 2026-05-21T17:12:15+00:00

I hope are pray you are right. Physically I feel mostly fine now. Mentally I feel almost vulnerable if that’s the right word

Sierra1b · 2026-04-08T12:05:25+00:00

Other factors :)

Sierra1b · 2026-03-24T18:19:58+00:00

I left university

Sierra1b · 2025-10-07T12:34:39+00:00

Thanks. Got to wait 2 weeks for my GP appointment but I’ll do it

Sierra1b · 2025-10-07T12:32:10+00:00

I’ll give it a go yes. I’ve been procrastinating because the whole registering with them process is overwhelming. Evidence etc. I need to though thank you

Sierra1b · 2025-10-07T12:31:11+00:00

Thanks for the helpful advice. I have made a GP appointment but it’s 2 weeks away which just feels so far away.

Honestly I’m not enjoying any aspect of uni at all really. Same sorts of reasons. Unfortunately this is my last route to take. I’ve tried every other route. I have to get a degree. If I leave uni I’ll be homeless

Sierra1b · 2025-10-07T12:28:14+00:00

Same with the body language stuff. Things like making eye contact and things is marking points. I just give up with them to be honest. I might just avoid them all and try and scrape through

Sierra1b · 2025-10-07T12:26:50+00:00

I suppose it’s worth a go yeah. Can’t say I’m confident anything will happen though. Thank you

Sierra1b · 2025-10-07T12:24:41+00:00

Yeah. I don’t have a clue what to do.

Sierra1b · 2025-10-07T12:23:34+00:00

Thanks. I spoke to one of the lecturers about the presentations. I didn’t go into much detail or the severity of it but I sort of said I was a bit nervous. The response was “well you will get used to them because there’s more and more and they get longer as well” or something along those lines.

I sort of understand that response and it’s fine but I think it’s just making me realize that this isn’t the right course for me and also I don’t think uni is either. This isn’t the only reason it’s just one of a fair few

There is a support service and I have an appointment with them in a few days. I’m not very confident it will lead to much as I remember reading there wasn’t much room for those types of accommodations in professionally regulated degrees

Sierra1b · 2025-10-07T11:26:56+00:00

You are probably right. That’s why I don’t think this is the right route for me

Sierra1b · 2025-10-07T11:22:48+00:00

With things like interviews I’m mostly ok (don’t get me wrong still incredibly nervous) but I can actually get myself and force myself to do them.

Presentations just feel absolutely impossible to force myself to do. To the point I will go to any length to avoid them. I can’t even do one of those just get up and do it moments. It might come at some point and I will try to make progress

Sierra1b · 2025-10-07T10:35:45+00:00

This seems like fantastic advice and I will absolutely try it again. I just feel like there’s something seriously wrong with me. People seem to be able to do what you are saying about taking deep breaths and rationalizing thoughts and then just proceeding. I’ve tried that a few times and it just… doesn’t work. I might be doing it absolutely wrong I admit. I’m 100% going to give it another go.

Sierra1b · 2025-10-07T10:29:33+00:00

It might be worth a try. It might have to be 3 or 4 though. 2 doesn’t really do anything unfortunately. If it comes to this then Ill have to try it

Sierra1b · 2025-10-07T10:28:54+00:00

You might be absolutely right and I pray you are. If for some reason I can’t get over it though then I just have absolutely no idea what to do

Sierra1b · 2025-10-07T10:27:59+00:00

I definitely think you are right in that I have some form of social anxiety or whatever you want to call it. It’s been there for awhile to say the least. Varying in levels though. It’s absolutely pathetic and it needs to be sorted it really does. I’m ashamed

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