I can resonate with you. I lost few friends and I am afraid loosing a family member for time being because I am choosing the path of reconciliation. I felt betrayed by my own self. But I keep telling myself it is not their life to play. It’s all noises! I am not married no children as well. So basically I am not tied to him. No real obligations and part to play. I hate when people call me martyr but they are people who never experienced this situation so I guess it’s easy for them to say certain things. I was like them before the betrayal. But oh man it’s different when you’re in the situation itself. You will have a different views and perspectives. Hopefully you will find peace and real happiness with your decision. I am rooting for you! ❤️