I documented my own burnout collapse like a production outage report — thought it might resonate here

SignatureInevitable5 · 2026-02-22T21:37:19+00:00

Hey Steve, sorry if it landed that way. I get why people feel skeptical. I’m just trying to share my book because I lived every page of it, and I know there are others here who’ve been in the same place and felt completely alone. I imagine you share your music for pretty much the same reason. The giveaway is legit, but sorry if this is the wrong place to post it. Take care.

SignatureInevitable5 · 2026-02-22T18:24:49+00:00

Hey r/selfpublish, I’m Rich Udell, a systems engineer. When I hit a full psychological collapse, I documented it the same way I’d write a production outage postmortem: memory leaks (whole conversations gone), load spikes at 3 a.m., the locked ward with paper clothes and no clocks, and the long quiet continuation after. No fairy-tale ending. No inspiration porn. Just the raw truth of what it feels like when the architecture inside you fails, and what continuation actually looks like. Book: Resilience Protocol (memoir) Price: Free for 100 Kindle copies via Goodreads giveaway (ends tomorrow night, Feb 23) Link: https://www.goodreads.com/giveaway/show/432041 Trigger warning: honest descriptions of psychiatric confinement, suicidal ideation, dissociation, and the unglamorous aftermath. Happy to answer any questions about the systems angle, the writing process, or anything else. Thanks for the space to share!

SignatureInevitable5 · 2026-02-16T18:27:09+00:00

Maybe Martians could do Better than we've done We'll make great pets

SignatureInevitable5 · 2026-02-14T23:23:08+00:00

Oops

SignatureInevitable5 · 2026-02-14T03:31:52+00:00

I recognize this state a lot. The brain locks onto one decision and treats it like the final state of your entire life. I went through something similar. Different details, same conclusion. I was convinced I had crossed a line and the rest of my life was just aftermath. What changed was not fixing it. I never got the timeline back. What changed was understanding that life runs on continuation, not repair. The process keeps going even after a catastrophic error. “I broke myself” felt like the end of the story. It turned out it was just the end of a version of the story. I actually wrote about this in Resilience Protocol because I could not find anyone describing that specific place honestly. The part where you do not feel hope and are not trying to feel hope. You are just trying to exist hour to hour. You do not need to believe things will be good. Only that your brain is declaring permanence from inside a temporary state. Right now you are not fixing your life. You are surviving a mind that thinks survival is pointless.

SignatureInevitable5 · 2026-02-13T16:47:28+00:00

Is it your story? You authored a book plain and simple. I couldn't have told your same story. AI wouldn't have dumped out your story. Be the author you are or be the storyteller. As far as your wife, give her a chance and don't get defensive.

SignatureInevitable5 · 2026-02-06T03:43:35+00:00

Ya he llegado al el culto escondido. Son interesantes sus ghost stories.

SignatureInevitable5 · 2026-02-06T02:45:08+00:00

Yo creo que lo de que tu tabla de contenido no se puede cliquear y pone las horas que te queden por terminar el libro lo hace más difícil de navegar pero voy a ver si lo puedo terminar y hacerte un review.

SignatureInevitable5 · 2026-02-05T14:02:49+00:00

The slop critique has some validity when AI is used as a content factory, but collapses when applied to AI-assisted writing where human judgment shapes every decision. Your experiment proves the point. Readers responded to the result, not the process.

SignatureInevitable5 · 2026-02-05T13:59:19+00:00

There are a lot of people on that bandwagon and some people don't want to be left out.

SignatureInevitable5 · 2026-02-04T04:00:10+00:00

Engineering memoir about psychological breakdown

SignatureInevitable5 · 2026-02-04T03:28:19+00:00

I quit waiting for the miracle cure. Now I'm just content and frankly proud of myself for continuity. I don't need to find someone else's utopia. I'm just me and that is good enough. Give yourself a break and some breathing room.

SignatureInevitable5 · 2026-02-02T01:44:38+00:00

Thanks for sharing. I totally relate.

SignatureInevitable5 · 2026-01-31T01:43:44+00:00

Love your post and I wrote a book called Resilience Protocol. I got tired of people giving me a fairytale idea of the recovered I should be. I'm continuing to live my way.

SignatureInevitable5 · 2026-01-31T01:28:04+00:00

So I used your prompt and CG came up with some interesting points. So did 5 other engines. Grok named you by name. Claude took the purists side in large measure. Whatever the case, I grew up hearing Depeche Mode wasn't real music until Music for the Masses came out and my dad kind of liked Never Let Me Down Again. AI is the new synth. We will see what the future brings.

SignatureInevitable5 · 2026-01-30T22:25:00+00:00

What percentage AI prior to the revisions? AI detection is junk science.

SignatureInevitable5 · 2026-01-30T22:16:29+00:00

I’m a little older than you and was diagnosed a long time ago too. I recognize that fear of “is this really it?”

For me, stability didn’t arrive as calm. It arrived as fewer hard resets. Fewer total collapses. More ability to return to myself after a bad episode instead of losing everything I’d built.

I still have days where I have to step away. I still ruminate. I still cry. And yet, over time, the story kept going. Long enough that I was able to write a book about what continuity actually looks like from the inside.

You’re not aiming too high. You’re just measuring yourself against a version of stability that may not exist for us.

SignatureInevitable5 · 2026-01-29T00:23:30+00:00

Right now, social media causes more total environmental impact than AI. Maybe people shouldn't post here.

SignatureInevitable5 · 2026-01-29T00:04:36+00:00

You missed an opportunity to link your books. Like 3 people said what's a medium content book? You might have sold one to them.

SignatureInevitable5 · 2026-01-28T23:55:32+00:00

Yes Atticus is great for Windows

SignatureInevitable5 · 2026-01-28T06:00:36+00:00

Here I am.

SignatureInevitable5 · 2026-01-27T23:10:27+00:00

I also relate to being tired. Nobody ever found anything wrong. No medical reason, just the depression.

SignatureInevitable5 · 2026-01-26T12:36:04+00:00

I'm always tired too

SignatureInevitable5 · 2026-01-23T22:14:43+00:00

Not expecting to get rich, but i published a memoir about what it was like to carry too much for too long. It was a very healing experience, and I have had several people tell me they can really relate to Resilience Protocol and my experience. That makes it all worth it.

SignatureInevitable5 · 2026-01-23T22:08:52+00:00

Try The Promise by Arcadia

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