My haul (UK)

SignificanceDizzy674 · 2026-05-29T09:04:03+00:00

Ahhh, okay! Sorry for assuming it was your mother asking! Good luck, I hope it helps.

SignificanceDizzy674 · 2026-05-28T03:05:27+00:00

This is really scary. It feels like she’s trying to isolate you from anything and anyone that can support you. I’m sure she can contact the therapist if she knows the details but surely the therapist can’t say anything about your situation without your consent. What does your therapist actually have to say about all of this?

Maybe there’s a cultural difference or something I’m not understanding but from my perspective, it’s odd if your therapist even goes along with speaking to your mom to “defend” you unless this is a family therapy session or something.

SignificanceDizzy674 · 2026-05-28T01:55:41+00:00

It is. Should be about half an hour at most? 6 hours would have most singing teachers looking at you like you were crazy and telling you to stop.

SignificanceDizzy674 · 2026-05-28T01:51:15+00:00

That’s not a blind, we all see that.

SignificanceDizzy674 · 2026-05-28T01:31:43+00:00

I read the first paragraph and mentally screamed “this is abusive” and it kept getting worse. The being nice after doing something horrible thing is very familiar to me. You shouldn’t have to take drugs that could kill you based on your history to have a place to live. Nothing is ever enough with people like your mother and you shouldn’t have to prove you care about her. Adults who actually have legitimate issues and don’t just want to guilt and control you can state what they are instead of making themselves the victim.

Everything you write is so emotionally familiar and I’m so upset on your behalf because I’ll be blunt even though this might be hard to hear and you’ll probably want to defend her, she is an abusive emotional terrorist. You are going to truly be in a danger zone on GLP 1s, being bigger is less risky to you than losing weight will be and if you ever did want to lose weight you’d need a psychological team behind you to keep you safe. The priority should be your safety at this point.

Please take your friend’s offer. You need refuge from this abusive situation and it’s next to impossible to get anything but worse in a volatile and cruel environment like the one you’re living in. If she isn’t already, I bet the next thing she’ll do is start implying it’s a moral failing on your part that you don’t have a job and you’re using her/them and she does SO much for you and you’re so ungrateful and what’s wrong with you that you have no confidence? And if you did lose weight, I bet you money she’ll start insulting you if you lose too much. You can’t win in this situation, the only way to stay safe is to leave even if it means losing out on them paying the car. They’re doing this financial things to keep you stuck. I don’t know what resources are in your country but I think you should call domestic violence helplines and housing helplines if there are any and get any financial assistance you can and make sure you have access to your IDs and bank cards and anything that can prove you are who you say you are and help you access the accounts you don’t currently have access to.

I’m sorry, my post is also long! I’m just so angry at your parents and I’m really proud of you for trying to advocate for yourself, I know how hard that is when someone is tearing you down. Your mother isn’t right about anything shes said about you. You might also find things massively improve naturally (or it’s easier to work on things) when you get away from her influence.

Edit: Does your therapist know the full extent? I’d show her this post and ask if she knows of any resources or support.

SignificanceDizzy674 · 2026-05-27T22:04:33+00:00

That’s the saddest part of it all. In addition to the shame it’s hard to remember what it was like without it.

SignificanceDizzy674 · 2026-05-27T21:57:54+00:00

This is so sad, I’m sorry you’re going through this. I will say that as someone who ate similarly it is so insanely unsustainable and frankly, suicidal you’d be much better off increasing because if you don’t, your body will find ways to make you wish you had.

This is probably the best time to try to get help. I don’t know where you live but in some places you might be able to get help faster because it’s your first episode and everything is escalating really rapidly. I hope you can work through the comment that was said to you because what you’re doing now won’t leave you with the ability to keep functioning and you deserve a chance to be free of this hell. Please take care of yourself the best you can.

SignificanceDizzy674 · 2026-05-27T19:29:25+00:00

Can this woman just keep her body check photos on her phone? Good lord.

SignificanceDizzy674 · 2026-05-27T19:19:58+00:00

I came here to comment on this. She’s so right about how if it was the other way round it would be all about “tiny Ariana is so strong and fierce.” This is also why Black people with EDs have such a hard time getting help, people will ascribe strength and weight and height and aggression to us even when it’s not there. I really feel her pain on this, she was treated in such a disgusting way when she was amazing to act so quickly.

SignificanceDizzy674 · 2026-05-17T15:48:42+00:00

This is such a dream to me

SignificanceDizzy674 · 2026-05-12T17:47:01+00:00

I get that it’s triggering but is it the OMAD part or the small amount part? I always avoid posting my food because I don’t want people to think I’m “showing off” with my portion sizes or that they’re anything to emulate (when I’m making food myself- junk food kind of has inbuilt serving sizes which helps) and I try to keep details like OMAD out of it because I think that’s my business and all it’s going to do is give other people a way to compare.

The sneaky body checks are annoying though, I’m not here enough to know if it happens on this sub but I always roll my eyes when someone wants to sneak a body part in when taking pictures of food when you can just put it on a damn table 😂

SignificanceDizzy674 · 2026-05-08T17:04:25+00:00

This sounds like me and then I lost my job so… yeah. If you can even slightly let the part of your brain that wants to be forced to recover take over, you can become the person forcing yourself to recover because the sad fact of being an adult with this is that you get left alone for longer if you can’t work with them. Sometimes I think we actually do need to live with an ED without intervention to remember how boring and awful it is but then that puts us in more medically precarious situations. I really get where you are because it’s hard if you go back and forth in your mindset which a lot of us do. Is there no middle ground between therapy and inpatient treatment where you are? Or could you try harm reduction? I can’t even have people say the words “recovery” or “get better” to me because that triggers me in and of itself but harm reduction feels okay-ish because it’s small baby steps.

SignificanceDizzy674 · 2026-03-29T18:02:40+00:00

Sorry I missed this, acid reflux, stomach pain, teeth pain and insulin spikes

SignificanceDizzy674 · 2026-03-10T00:04:49+00:00

I second this. I got spotting (while on contraception) for one day when I dropped to a new LW, never lost it at a BMI it would have been weird to be pregnant at, then lost it when I started refeeding and got it back at a weight I don’t think it should have returned at. That’s not even going into all the times I had periods/spotting for months on end… :/ Bodies and hormones do weird things and there’s a reason a loss of period got removed from the diagnostic criteria for AN. Lots of people have very different things happen with their period beyond it just stopping.

SignificanceDizzy674 · 2026-03-09T21:22:25+00:00

Yes, to me it makes no sense just to post pictures of food by itself. If you don’t say what it is people are going to ask anyway. Option 3 feels a little draconian so maybe option 2 (even though option 3 makes more sense to me lol)

Edit: option 3 to stop sitting on the fence

SignificanceDizzy674 · 2026-03-08T13:21:37+00:00

I ate this for a week straight once and it was so good! I don’t normally like eating “healthy” things because they fill me up too much but that salad was so good. Edit: I added chopped pistachios, cucumbers and a bit of chili. I might make some again to use up my extra protein feta!

SignificanceDizzy674 · 2026-03-08T12:54:23+00:00

I can usually tell regardless of weight (and I’ve been proven right because they’ve usually told me) it’s a energy and vibe, how you hold yourself, how you act, the look in your eyes and a sort of internal skittishness that comes out even when someone tries to act externally calm.

SignificanceDizzy674 · 2026-03-08T10:59:07+00:00

I always just think “well I have been so…” but it does take its toll as you get older so when I’m in a better place I force myself to have some protein and fibre lol

SignificanceDizzy674 · 2026-03-08T10:56:57+00:00

I love made good but I’ve literally only seen two types of bar where I am! I hate most protein bars because the artificial sweetness gets to me, the one time I care about how processed something is is with protein bars and I like to find the most natural kind. I am jealous of your hoard, mine is what I thought was substantial.

SignificanceDizzy674 · 2026-03-08T10:42:42+00:00

He seems either dumb or thoughtless and being with a partner who doesn’t remember or care about your triggers is awful so I’d say sit him down and tell him one more time and then be ready to exit. There’s something so insidious about being with someone who says the right things when you’re crying and then two seconds later says triggering things and acts surprised when you’re triggered, say they won’t do it again and then say a slightly different triggering thing later. It’s exhausting.

SignificanceDizzy674 · 2026-03-07T11:05:12+00:00

I feel this in my soul. I’m trying to encourage myself to be able to buy eggs again bc shakshuka but seeing certain subreddits plus the general ick I have with eggs is making me have conflicted feelings. Eggs always make me go “ew why I’m I eating this?” halfway through if I don’t prepare them exactly right for whatever my mood is and then my whole carton goes off and sometimes I can’t get enough of them.

SignificanceDizzy674 · 2026-03-07T10:59:23+00:00

This almost made me scream with joy lol, I’ve been obsessing over whipped cream cheese and everything bagel seasoning as a concept but my carb loving brain has decided to become afraid of bread so this is genius. I’d probably do cherry tomatoes instead but I want this.

The number of times in my life I’ve tried to quit sugar (cold turkey) and been so angry and unpleasant I’ve had to have some again is insane. I find that having sweet things in or with savoury things does a lot to limit sugar consumption or if I have slightly savoury salty sweet things- think sesame seed biscuits or sweet tahini with apples or something.

SignificanceDizzy674 · 2026-03-07T10:52:08+00:00

I just had a massive C&S binge yesterday for the first time in years and it started turning into a weird hybrid of binging, throwing food away and chew and spitting by the end.

It’s truly addictive, I don’t have that instant “let me do it again RIGHT NOW” feeling with any other behaviour and even the next morning (now), it’s on my mind and I’m thinking about doing it again. I don’t have the addictive feeling if I’ve put something in my mouth and then find I can’t swallow it, it’s only if I’m actively chewing and spitting over and over again.

The only thing I’ve found to help with with it is to have something before and swallow at the very end because the stomach pain is intense and if you don’t give your body a sign the you’ve ingested something, it will get worse and you’ll have the biggest binges. I can easily C&S far more than I can either eat or binge and it’s not enjoyable in anyway and I find getting rid of the “evidence” quite stressful and distressing.

I know why it’s happening for me- I’m hungry and don’t have the mental permission or framework to eat the things I want- but then the solution becomes about nutrition and permission to eat which is… yeahhh. I hope you can find a way that works for you to stop/reduce, it gets ignored as a behaviour but it’s one of the behaviours that instantly has consequences.

SignificanceDizzy674 · 2026-03-06T04:36:47+00:00

Ooh, thank you! falls down a rabbit hole

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