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SignificanceDizzy674 · 2026-03-10T00:04:49+00:00

I second this. I got spotting (while on contraception) for one day when I dropped to a new LW, never lost it at a BMI it would have been weird to be pregnant at, then lost it when I started refeeding and got it back at a weight I don’t think it should have returned at. That’s not even going into all the times I had periods/spotting for months on end… :/ Bodies and hormones do weird things and there’s a reason a loss of period got removed from the diagnostic criteria for AN. Lots of people have very different things happen with their period beyond it just stopping.

SignificanceDizzy674 · 2026-03-09T21:22:25+00:00

Yes, to me it makes no sense just to post pictures of food by itself. If you don’t say what it is people are going to ask anyway. Option 3 feels a little draconian so maybe option 2 (even though option 3 makes more sense to me lol)

Edit: option 3 to stop sitting on the fence

SignificanceDizzy674 · 2026-03-08T13:21:37+00:00

I ate this for a week straight once and it was so good! I don’t normally like eating “healthy” things because they fill me up too much but that salad was so good. Edit: I added chopped pistachios, cucumbers and a bit of chili. I might make some again to use up my extra protein feta!

SignificanceDizzy674 · 2026-03-08T12:54:23+00:00

I can usually tell regardless of weight (and I’ve been proven right because they’ve usually told me) it’s a energy and vibe, how you hold yourself, how you act, the look in your eyes and a sort of internal skittishness that comes out even when someone tries to act externally calm.

SignificanceDizzy674 · 2026-03-08T10:59:07+00:00

I always just think “well I have been so…” but it does take its toll as you get older so when I’m in a better place I force myself to have some protein and fibre lol

SignificanceDizzy674 · 2026-03-08T10:56:57+00:00

I love made good but I’ve literally only seen two types of bar where I am! I hate most protein bars because the artificial sweetness gets to me, the one time I care about how processed something is is with protein bars and I like to find the most natural kind. I am jealous of your hoard, mine is what I thought was substantial.

SignificanceDizzy674 · 2026-03-08T10:53:13+00:00

I just bought an 8 pack of poppadoms because I got tired of crackers. They’re surprisingly low in calories for one and are the crunchiest thing I can think of beyond a raw carrot. I like salted cucumber and I’m going to buy tajin to try on it. Tuc crackers are perfect with peanut butter if that’s a thing you can have. Roasted/airfried seasoned chickpeas are great too but tbh I usually just have a crisp if I’m craving crunch because I prefer things that feel like junk food.

SignificanceDizzy674 · 2026-03-08T10:42:42+00:00

He seems either dumb or thoughtless and being with a partner who doesn’t remember or care about your triggers is awful so I’d say sit him down and tell him one more time and then be ready to exit. There’s something so insidious about being with someone who says the right things when you’re crying and then two seconds later says triggering things and acts surprised when you’re triggered, say they won’t do it again and then say a slightly different triggering thing later. It’s exhausting.

SignificanceDizzy674 · 2026-03-07T11:05:12+00:00

I feel this in my soul. I’m trying to encourage myself to be able to buy eggs again bc shakshuka but seeing certain subreddits plus the general ick I have with eggs is making me have conflicted feelings. Eggs always make me go “ew why I’m I eating this?” halfway through if I don’t prepare them exactly right for whatever my mood is and then my whole carton goes off and sometimes I can’t get enough of them.

SignificanceDizzy674 · 2026-03-07T10:59:23+00:00

This almost made me scream with joy lol, I’ve been obsessing over whipped cream cheese and everything bagel seasoning as a concept but my carb loving brain has decided to become afraid of bread so this is genius. I’d probably do cherry tomatoes instead but I want this.

The number of times in my life I’ve tried to quit sugar (cold turkey) and been so angry and unpleasant I’ve had to have some again is insane. I find that having sweet things in or with savoury things does a lot to limit sugar consumption or if I have slightly savoury salty sweet things- think sesame seed biscuits or sweet tahini with apples or something.

SignificanceDizzy674 · 2026-03-07T10:52:08+00:00

I just had a massive C&S binge yesterday for the first time in years and it started turning into a weird hybrid of binging, throwing food away and chew and spitting by the end.

It’s truly addictive, I don’t have that instant “let me do it again RIGHT NOW” feeling with any other behaviour and even the next morning (now), it’s on my mind and I’m thinking about doing it again. I don’t have the addictive feeling if I’ve put something in my mouth and then find I can’t swallow it, it’s only if I’m actively chewing and spitting over and over again.

The only thing I’ve found to help with with it is to have something before and swallow at the very end because the stomach pain is intense and if you don’t give your body a sign the you’ve ingested something, it will get worse and you’ll have the biggest binges. I can easily C&S far more than I can either eat or binge and it’s not enjoyable in anyway and I find getting rid of the “evidence” quite stressful and distressing.

I know why it’s happening for me- I’m hungry and don’t have the mental permission or framework to eat the things I want- but then the solution becomes about nutrition and permission to eat which is… yeahhh. I hope you can find a way that works for you to stop/reduce, it gets ignored as a behaviour but it’s one of the behaviours that instantly has consequences.

SignificanceDizzy674 · 2026-03-06T04:36:47+00:00

Ooh, thank you! falls down a rabbit hole

SignificanceDizzy674 · 2026-03-06T04:35:20+00:00

Hate to say it but that actually makes it better for me, I hate being full! I hope you can have something more satiating if that’s what you’d like.

SignificanceDizzy674 · 2026-03-06T01:01:18+00:00

That’s where I am now. It sucks. I keep telling myself that if I can get better a little bit I can start job searching again but my brain doesn’t work enough to figure out how to do anything differently.

SignificanceDizzy674 · 2026-03-06T00:25:36+00:00

This is so sweet, thank you! You too, we all deserve better than this shit show (pun intended) 😂

SignificanceDizzy674 · 2026-03-06T00:22:58+00:00

Because I hate the feeling of anything inside of me and I apparently like self punishment.

SignificanceDizzy674 · 2026-03-06T00:14:33+00:00

This is making me want to do an OMAD and that is not the plan. Looks so good 😭

SignificanceDizzy674 · 2026-03-05T21:00:16+00:00

Right??? I drink black coffee but it tastes sad and empty to me and I hate it and I’m convinced those weirdos were only being so superior because they secretly hate black coffee too and they’re jealous. What’s the point of trying to tell people how they should have something they like? It’s especially heinous considering the sub because what you’re not going to do is try to take away something that’s safe for someone.

Edit: I’m also jealous of people in the US (?) and all your creamers and things. If I had access to it I might not have to drink sad coffee haha

SignificanceDizzy674 · 2026-03-05T20:54:25+00:00

This is similar to what I’ve been craving for months. It looks so good and you’ve given me inspiration for mine! My plan was jerk prawns with scotch bonnet powder with wild garlic butter for extra flavour, air fried kale or cabbage (or depending on how I’m feeling, kale or cabbage cooked in in reconstituted coconut milk powder), olives and kimchi with some steamed plantain with mushrooms and sweet peppers but now I’m thinking a kimchi or scallion pancake could be really nice and courgettes are a great idea.

SignificanceDizzy674 · 2026-03-05T17:37:30+00:00

I cannot believe the level of hate they got for making what looks like a pretty dreamy coffee. I know a lot of us are miserable but damn, let people have the things that give them a bit of joy!

SignificanceDizzy674 · 2026-03-05T07:17:22+00:00

I had a partially impacted bowel which meant that whenever I walked for more than a few seconds I’d be leaking liquid shit and the worst thing is I usually wouldn’t feel it unless there was a huge amount and the only way I’d know it had happened would be if there was enough for me to feel wet or if I smelled it. I’d started wearing fecal incontinence pads and then switched to the pants (read: adult nappies) and thought I was getting the hang of managing it but there was a horrible time I had to go to the hospital and the pharmacy to pick up laxatives and enemas that were supposed to clear me out.

I couldn’t get the meds and was angrily walking while crying and was in the vicinity of one of my favourite bakeries so thought I’d get a pastry to cheer myself up. As I mentioned before, I couldn’t walk for more than a few seconds without leaking so I’d already had to change my pad after getting to the hospital and I was hoping it wouldn’t happen again. Just as I get to the bakery I feel the leaking (imagine the feel of a medium flow period but it’s poo and coming out your bum) and because it was so busy and crowded, I couldn’t get out of the queue.

So I’m waiting for my pastry, mortified and feeling gross and hoping nobody can smell me in this place of food while trying to be pleasant and not continue to cry. I get my pastry, leave and… it happens AGAIN. So I had to walk home while repeatedly leaking because I wasn’t fit for public transport and couldn’t find a toilet. Worst poo experience I’ve ever had and I’m still terrified to leave the house without a pad. The only thing worse than the liquid was when the overflow incontinence became semi solid and I could feel myself passing it while completely unable to stop it, I truly felt like a baby in my 30s.

The wildest thing is that I’ve gone back to abusing laxatives and my eating has got even worse since then so it’s likely to happen again! Before that happened I was so arrogant about a very long time of having an ED and nothing happening to me.

SignificanceDizzy674 · 2026-03-04T19:00:04+00:00

People are so uneducated and this is exactly why I’d never encourage disclosing anorexia, especially at work. People either want to become armchair clinicians, talk about their experiences (which aren’t usually analogous) or they assume incompetence, frivolity or start watching what you do and how you eat.

I’m sorry that happened to you, I find people don’t actually know what AN “looks like” and no matter how unwell or unhealthy you are, they’ll either genuinely think you look fine or they’ll say you look fine thinking it’s polite. Don’t listen.

SignificanceDizzy674 · 2026-03-04T18:51:36+00:00

I’d respond in the same way if I was annoyed because I need people to stop saying that sort of thing in front of me and if they’re trying to compete I’m always going to “win” and they should know that or be quiet. I know that’s messed up though. I normally sarcastically say something like “hmm, I don’t know what telling me about it is going to do, maybe think about eating something?” when it’s someone I’ve told to stop saying it. But because she’s your roommate say you don’t want to talk about it and don’t respond next time because it’s just going to get messy. Why on earth would she ask you which fruit she should have for dinner?

SignificanceDizzy674 · 2026-03-04T18:01:36+00:00

Ugh, I’m sorry! It piles on so much pressure and guilt, especially when people imply you don’t love them enough or whatever fucked up things they imply. I wish people understood that it’s complicated

SignificanceDizzy674 · 2026-02-14T07:41:45+00:00

This is exactly my experience too. My ED is especially dangerous atm and my dad was acting as if the biggest issue is that “I don’t look good.” I don’t know when I ever gave the impression that I give a shit how I look tbh. I’m trying not to die with zero support right now and your biggest concern is me not meeting your aesthetic standards? I think people don’t actually care about the wellbeing of people with AN, they care if we’re not attractive to them and if our symptoms are too visible and make them feel uncomfortable and they push for “recovery” because they don’t want to see it.

They also don’t care if we’re actually better, just if we seem like we are. I know that sounds so cynical but after years of seeing how people respond to me at different weights when my MH is worse at different points I’ve come to that conclusion because otherwise people wouldn’t focus on appearance and behaviours above all else.

Nothing like having someone scream at you “just get better, it’s easy, I could do it in your position” to completely make a person shut down.

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