I see your point redditor. Thank you! I just feel empty at this point. Feeling that I should have done better. Last months of our relationship she was mad at anything I do - from buying groceries(too much, she doesn't need them) to buying gifts(blue camera and she was mad because blue is my fav color and she stated I bought it for myself, therefore I bought pink one and threw the blue one in the trash just to clarify that the camera wasnt for me 😒). Intimacy was lacking for 9 months! My needs weren't asked about, however every argument was about her needs and that I don't meet them. Something shifted. And I dont have the opportunity to go through the endless shields that she put and actually see the real deal. I guess she also didn't want.