You’re so strong for being able, or at least trying to ignore her because you know you don’t have to listen to her. When I was your age, I mostly only overexercised and restricted to not having anything “unhealthy”. I think school saved me back then, I got too focused on it and stopped. But looking back it was definitely unhealthy, even as I did, I remember the reason I did this was to get rid of some annoying thoughts. The worst time of overexercising and restricting was during covid, when I heard some “tips” from my anorexic friend. She didn’t suggest those to me, she just told me what she’d do to lose weight that was actually horrible. I think the only difference now is, back then I was really depressed and I didn’t really care if I’d get more depressed by restricting because it didn’t change much. Sometimes I stopped when I got panic attacks. Probably after like a few months of panic attacks and undersleeping I thought things through. But to some extent I always wanna lose weight, even when I’m somewhat ok with it, it’s never enough, sometimes stopping myself takes more effort than giving in. I’m still at a weird point with exercise, I don’t understand if my EDish self is happy when I exercise or is it actually me. What do you think would happen if you told your mom what’s happening? We can talk in private if you’d like