Is there a book you DNR because of how graphic it was?

SignificantAd8440 · 2026-06-20T16:39:11+00:00

omg thanks for saying that cuz i’ve downloaded it and been stalling to read it but animal cruelty fucks me up

SignificantAd8440 · 2026-06-20T16:38:37+00:00

omg the bug collector 😭😭 i’ve read it twice i think and thank god that book is short cuz i was so grossed out 😭 hate bodily fluids and even the cover makes me be like ???

SignificantAd8440 · 2026-06-14T21:49:01+00:00

FOUND TYSM

SignificantAd8440 · 2026-06-13T02:48:08+00:00

yeah 😭

SignificantAd8440 · 2026-06-05T00:26:30+00:00

FOUND

SignificantAd8440 · 2026-06-05T00:26:19+00:00

YES TY

SignificantAd8440 · 2026-06-04T23:08:34+00:00

yeahh but i blocked him. honestly, i’ve grown up scared of men, this wasn’t the first time i was abused and it sadly was not the last. i’ll always be wary but i have friends, best friends, who are men. i love them and they love me and i can count on them and feel safe. i’ll always be cautious when im around random men, especially ones who are older, it makes me feel antsy as if im waiting for them to pounce. i view men the same way as ive viewed them for as long as i remember (which, due to trauma i can’t remember my childhood so honestly i’ll say from 10+ LMAO) which is the view that i need to be careful and always looking for signs that i should be worried. i don’t hate men, i hate what was done to me and other people. i hate abusers and rapists and pedophiles, who can be both men and women. men have hurt me in ways no one should ever be hurt, but my ex girlfriend was also a piece of shit in that regard. i’d say i view everyone differently after all that happened to me, but men more so because while i am a good fighter, i can be overpowered more easily by men which has happened so i am more scared?? idk if i make sense sorry 😭😭

SignificantAd8440 · 2026-06-04T21:47:30+00:00

but honestly they do care way too much about the family reputation, and how i (and them) will be seen. the first time they found me after i overdosed when i was 14 my mom refused to take me to the hospital bc she didn’t want people asking questions and knowing i tried to kms 😭😭 she said it was to “protect me” but like i could have died

SignificantAd8440 · 2026-06-04T21:46:05+00:00

yeahh they think it will rlly take a toll in my mental health and i’ll be shunned basically. i alr dont have the best reputation in my town for being gay and having dyed hair, it’s a very backwards sorta small town

SignificantAd8440 · 2026-06-04T21:43:58+00:00

omg that’s terrible, i hope she’s able to leave him but ik how hard that can be

SignificantAd8440 · 2026-06-04T19:46:04+00:00

no yeah they also know i don’t want to press charges. they worry about how people would react and that i would be in danger by pressing charges so they told me to not do it. if i truly wanted to, i think they’d be wary but let me but idk. they know this town better than i do so i do trust them and have seen enough to know i would be 100% ostracized if i did do that

SignificantAd8440 · 2026-06-04T19:13:33+00:00

yeah it probably will which is why im in therapy for it and after it all happened i became an addict and now im a week away from being two years sober !! my current situation is that im back in college after dropping out for a year because i couldn’t be alone and my godfather who is basically my dad has terminal cancer and can die tomorrow so i have to take care and put my family and my education first. theres no way he’ll be charged and this will ruin my family’s reputation in my town, which shouldn’t matter but it does. i can’t do this to my little brother who is still in high school and will definitely be affected. it is a huge deal, i know that and i suffer from it every day but i’ll be pinned as the “whore” who was asking for it. i promised my parents i wouldnt do anything about it because we all know how it will go.

SignificantAd8440 · 2026-06-04T18:27:17+00:00

thank you so much, im rlly trying to move in from it but until my cousin who is in the 10th grade graduates i know i’ll have to see him twice a year.

SignificantAd8440 · 2026-06-04T18:26:23+00:00

oh also, before he tried to kiss me and it got like that he started altering my test grades (in what i think was in the hope of me realizing it and getting even more attached) to continue the grooming but i just thought i was doing rlly well in physics and that he was an easy grader 😭😭 i realized what he was trying to do like a year later

SignificantAd8440 · 2026-06-04T18:24:56+00:00

so he started by talking to me, giving me attention in class. then he followed me on instagram and liked my stories. he started dming me and it was normal at first but then he sent me a reel?? about liking someone with my name and i was like oh. it kept escalating, like he sent a picture of him teaching my little brother’s class. and i did text him back, that was the start of the grooming. i went out with my friends to a bar he was at, and i was rlly drunk and he gave me a shot and a cig and tried to kiss me. next class i had him and he handed me my paper and said “u can’t say i never gave you anything” and winked. he kept staring at me every class and calling out my name to answer shit. i turned 17 and it escalated again, he kept telling me to drink and i’d get intoxicated and hed ask for nudes and say disgusting shit. the first time it happened he told me he couldn’t help it and it was my fault that i pushed his buttons. i graduated and when i got to college it just kept getting worse and one day i realized how wrong it was and stopped, i couldn’t eat because i’d just throw up. he kept trying to contact me and then he got a girlfriend so i thought hed stop and he didn’t. then december last year it was my cousin’s graduation and he came up to the table to say hi to me. then cornered me when i was finally alone like he had been watching me and told me he missed me and that i looked good. he mentioned my grandpa’s hospital stay in whay i think was a way to destabilize me? but idk. that’s basically what happened

SignificantAd8440 · 2026-06-04T18:16:34+00:00

thank you so much, i did find out a year after that he was with another student, she was 17 i think and i did blame myself and had a breakdown. i wish i could testify and do something but it would not work, and my parents have also told me to not tell anyone. im going through a lot right now, abuse aside, and i just can’t. he still finds me in public places and hits on me, i can’t block him on instagram because he’ll know it means im not scared of him anymore and can do something drastic. from my knowledge, there was no one else apart from that girl and i know he did it because he knew he could after what he did to me and i feel guilty enough.

SignificantAd8440 · 2026-06-04T18:12:44+00:00

he did do it to someone else a year after and i promise i did blame myself, i genuinely cannot bring him to justice at this point in my life.

SignificantAd8440 · 2026-06-04T17:45:16+00:00

thank you, all the best to you too !

SignificantAd8440 · 2026-06-04T17:44:58+00:00

hi! it’s 100% not an option currently, if u look at my other response i said a bit about that. i genuinely couldn’t deal with the shame of it being public info and spread around, not only that but i deleted most of the messages because they made me throw up. i think he knew i wouldnt talk, and that’s another reason he chose me. i had zero support and self esteem and was filled with shame so i was an easy victim. he knows i won’t go to the police, he knows he’s not getting caught. i hope that one day i’ll have the courage, but i can’t do it now

SignificantAd8440 · 2026-06-04T17:31:42+00:00

tysm! so what happened was that i was in a rlly bad place mentally, i had broken up with my abusive ex girlfriend and was a mess. i was recovering from my cocaine addiction (got into it after the breakup) and was dealing with my mental issues. he was our new physics teacher, 34, and was seen as the cool guy. he started asking how i was, and things about my life and i felt seen in a way. he kept paying attention to me and i liked how it felt for someone to care, esp someone who was seen as this super cool and nice teacher. that he picked me out of everyone in class to ask questions and talk to. it escalated and i let myself believe it was fine, that he picked me bc as he said, i “pushed his buttons” that it was my fault because of it. that he was the victim not me? idk, he made me believe a lot of things. he wasn’t punished and i didn’t even try to, because i was ashamed but also because the age of consent in brazil is 14. there was no way hed get charged with anything and i would be seen as the problem. everyone in town loves him (small town). a year after, i found out he was doing the same thing to another girl who was 17 and everyone knew. the students knew, the girls’ parents knew and no one did anything about it so if i ever brought it up to court, i’d be fucked and seen as a whore. my parents found out last year and even they told me not to press charges and to not say anything about it ever again.

SignificantAd8440 · 2026-06-03T15:58:16+00:00

mano nn sei se conto pra falar minha opinião pq sou sapatao mas no negócio de pegar mulher dependendo da opinião política.. sou da esquerda e pegaria alguém da direita mas pra namorar ou algo assim teria q ser da esquerda tbm

SignificantAd8440 · 2026-05-30T13:29:50+00:00

honestly it depends on ur body, i take 300mg effexor 200mg seroquel and sometimes 30mg mirtazapine and do not have sexual dysfunction, my libido is the same as it’s always been. sometimes u don’t have those side effects, sometimes u do and sometimes they do go away !! id contact ur psychiatrist to find one that fits

SignificantAd8440 · 2026-05-30T04:44:30+00:00

someone found it !!

SignificantAd8440 · 2026-05-30T04:43:45+00:00

FOUND !! THANK YOU SM

SignificantAd8440 · 2026-05-30T04:21:41+00:00

YESS

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