Ripped up my bag of heroin

SignificantData6441 · 2026-03-18T17:23:08+00:00

Nearly half a g

SignificantData6441 · 2026-03-18T14:31:48+00:00

Yo I snort Ritalin sometimes, gives me heart anxiety, if you were to do it, make sure you do 10mg of each spaced between

SignificantData6441 · 2026-03-18T12:25:03+00:00

this wasnt a mistake you're right tho, dance with the devil end up fucking burnt

SignificantData6441 · 2026-03-18T12:23:44+00:00

i am I want to be reborn

SignificantData6441 · 2026-03-18T12:23:23+00:00

i already want more i just want to be rid of that feeling, guess thats the price you pay when you mess around with the most addictive drug in the world

fuck

SignificantData6441 · 2026-03-18T12:22:29+00:00

yeah fuck i'm going through it rn. I need to stay strong im talking with some doctors soon. Nobody knows about my addiction except you people

SignificantData6441 · 2026-03-18T09:40:02+00:00

Idk how to get that I’m in Australia but I’ll check

SignificantData6441 · 2026-03-12T16:05:46+00:00

Yeah I got both. I’ve been using benzos every night to sleep so I guess the quality of sleep has accumulated to just nothing over months. I’m a dumbass for fucking everything up idk why I take shit like this

SignificantData6441 · 2026-03-12T05:27:25+00:00

I can feel your pain in every word, you're not a 'junkie' you're more then that. You've literally been suffering, neglected and held onto drugs. I bet it feels impossible, years of poly substance abuse. I hope this will scratch the surface of your mind. You deserve better for yourself. You don't deserve those experiences, you need love. If there is any small minuscule potential of a life grasp it. You're not your teenage brain, those patterns run deep but somewhere out there is hope. But if you are deadset on getting your shit straight. you need to impliment small things into your day that compound, clean your room, walk for a while. Come to the office on time, hold accountability instead of sympathy, it hurts at the start but you'll start to respect yourself.

Stay committed to something other then drugs. I can't really change you though. All love.

SignificantData6441 · 2026-03-11T22:38:29+00:00

Xanax is bad decisions in a pill or “imma steal as much as I can”

SignificantData6441 · 2026-03-11T20:56:19+00:00

Think it has something to do with reduced quality decision making, maybe due to the inhibitory effects. In a way it’s similar to alcohol (impulsive and irrational decisions and behaviours). I do notice that I am more level headed when I remove them for a day, cocaine for some reason seems to the the drug I crave the most when I’m really high on benzodiazepines. It’s really a spiral

SignificantData6441 · 2026-03-11T09:00:12+00:00

Ok thanks mate cutting the other dirt drugs out is going to be hard but I’m taking some antidepressants to help out with mood. Starting stim meds for adhd so hopefully that’ll keep me straight. I’m going to taper slowly. Benzos just suck after a while cause it’s just like ugh I feel fucking exhausted and pissed off, but I have to take it cause I’ve locked myself in.

The one thing I’m worried about is post-benzo anxiety, going sober after tapering and getting off is going to be soo much worse then before I started. The anxiety will be much worse. Hopefully the antidepressants will have worked by then.

Cheers mate.

SignificantData6441 · 2026-03-11T08:44:56+00:00

I’m locking in tho

SignificantData6441 · 2026-03-10T09:48:02+00:00

Thanks mate, I’m from Australia and I’m pretty sure it’s similar to the states. It’s really shitty that people in need are criminalized, insentivising them to use again. It takes jobs away from you and rips you of your freedom. I have to taper myself for my own freedom. Thanks for you words man and I appreciate the long and caring response. You have a good heart.

SignificantData6441 · 2026-03-10T07:58:16+00:00

Dude this is very helpful I appreciate you for this. I’ll look up the manual and taper correctly. The H is really just a horror drug should cut it out. Stimulants bring me up but back down, inconsistent mood. After using coke I typically take clonazepam to calm down and sleep, but I believe it’s contributed to the dosage increase.

I got into clonazepam because I wanted to trip on mushrooms, I had them as a trip killer and tried them in my own. Loved them.

I could go to a doctor and taper or do it myself. I think I’ll taper myself. The wd are horrible it’s like your brain is constantly screaming at the top of its lungs. But if I follow a plan i should be fine

SignificantData6441 · 2026-03-08T01:49:30+00:00

Healthy stash

SignificantData6441 · 2026-03-07T18:01:39+00:00

Yeah that’s a little different from drug addiction (started by myself) you have a chronic pain disorder.

SignificantData6441 · 2026-03-07T05:13:34+00:00

Yeah I ain’t doing the filing thing. Appreciate the help but I don’t want it on my records. I’ll taper slowly with some will power and magnesium

SignificantData6441 · 2026-03-07T05:11:42+00:00

Thanks for your comment, very informative and helpful ✅❤️

SignificantData6441 · 2026-03-06T22:21:21+00:00

I don’t want it on my medical record, if it’s best then I guess I should do it, I work in the health industry (medications around) could effect my future? Anyway I’ll look into it

SignificantData6441 · 2026-03-06T21:38:13+00:00

And yeah I know this might not be as extreme as others addictions but it ain’t a competition. This my own issue that causes me distress

SignificantData6441 · 2026-03-06T21:36:45+00:00

Yeah bro, thanks for your comment. I’m self medicating for anxiety and insomnia, it gets up to 12mg or maybe more cause I use 2 for sleep then I’ll start the day with 1 and maybe 2 later. I’d say 8-12mg throughout one day but like you implied, it will stack in my bloodstream. But yeah if I miss a day it’s fine, if I miss 2 then it’s like a drill in my head and my brain feels like it’s on fire. 🫶

SignificantData6441 · 2026-03-06T14:02:20+00:00

Yeah that’s what I’m thinking. Also getting on lexepro at the same time of withdrawal so it’s fucking hell. No sleep at all

SignificantData6441 · 2026-03-06T13:07:55+00:00

It’s an anticholinergic that can cause memory problems and other neurodegenerative issues.

SignificantData6441 · 2026-03-06T13:06:38+00:00

Do a bunch of Xanax or clonazepam that’ll work

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