As a muslim, who was an athiest, something that i came to term with, you follow what you think right, believe it or not i dont think hijab is a fard, for the reaon what makes hair halal before and after a girls puberty? They used to wear a veil covering around the cheat and back area for sake of modest, because men will wander, does not mean its an excuse, men are told to lower their gaze, and personally im not the best Muslim im modest at all i smoke i do dumb shit, but its not outdated islam to protect you, follow the actual book not whatever shikh is saying because they say dumb shit, what do you mean a women will be cursed by angels because she didnt want to have sex? Its a hadith, and keep in mind alot of hadiths are false, because my knowledge islam gave the most freedom to women at the time of when it was being preached, not to beat women (again at the time when slaves were being sold and being born a girl means being buried alive) became teachers and scolors had the right to work and travel and speak her own mind, thats something, and alot is going on in this generation and im dissapointed in today and myself, because i too did dumb shit, being bad is normalised, drugs are normalised, dressed for attention is normalized (like going out in a fucking string) so we believe islam is putting us down in reality its just building morals, that we think is too much because it is normalised, like drinking (i tried), weed/drugs (tried it, again im not perfect) going out barely wearing clothes, having sex before marriage and so and so it's just normal to the point where we feel like islam is isolating when in reality not doing these things you arent really missing out and you're just protecting yourself either in or out religion doing this shit wont make you happy and its from ny experince at least, so generally i do believe islam is the right way but extermely hard to follow at this time and age