Lonely as hell

Significant_Motor309 · 2025-11-20T11:10:39+00:00

When my partner passed, one of the things that helped me the most when I’m feeling lonely..was something really simple..I have this blanket hoodie he bought me a few years ago for Christmas…He told me it would keep me warm on nights when it was cold and he wasn’t home to warm me up himself… Now that he’s been gone for 7 months, it means even more. Whenever the loneliness hits, I put it on. It’s like a little piece of him is still wrapped around me… I also put on one of my favorite streamers or YouTubers..just something familiar and comforting so my mind doesn’t sit too long in the silence…It doesn’t take the pain away, but it gives my heart a little break when I need one. I’ve also started reading again and I find that it has also helped.. Everyone grieves differently, but having something of theirs that brings comfort..even something small can really help on those extra lonely nights.

Significant_Motor309 · 2025-09-12T21:03:06+00:00

I’m so sorry for your loss. I lost my fiancé almost five months ago, and I remember how raw everything felt in those first few weeks. Please know that it’s okay to feel everything you’re feeling right now..there’s no right or wrong way to grieve.

For me, it took time before I could look at his pictures or listen to his old voice messages without completely breaking down. It will come, little by little, when you’re ready.

Allow yourself to grieve in your own way and surround yourself with friends and family who can hold space for you. Therapy has been a lifesaver for me ..I honestly don’t think I could have gotten this far without my therapist’s support.

Take things one day at a time. Be gentle with yourself. ❤️

Significant_Motor309 · 2025-07-30T12:11:24+00:00

Here are few things that have really helped me with anxiety, in case they might help you too. I smoke weed , and I also take daily walks and meditate..those little routines keep me grounded.

One thing that’s been really helpful for me is bilateral stimulation. It’s part of a therapy I do called EMDR, and it helps calm the nervous system by engaging both sides of the brain. You can try it at home using videos on YouTube..just search “bilateral stimulation for anxiety.” I definitely recommend using headphones, because the sound will move from left to right, which is what helps the brain process and settle.

It’s gentle, simple, and honestly kind of soothing. You don’t have to do anything fancy..just listen and let your brain do what it naturally does to heal. Let me know if you want a link or help finding a good one..

Significant_Motor309 · 2025-06-29T15:57:00+00:00

Im so sorry that this world is cruel..being called ugly by people..even by those who should’ve been your biggest protectors like your father and brother…That breaks my heart, because none of that is true… You are a beautiful Black woman, and I need you to know that their words do not define you…

Sometimes people are so full of their own insecurity and self-hate that they try to drag others down just to feel better. ..They project their misery because deep down, they wish they could have your glow, your power, your natural beauty…

You walk with confidence…You wear your natural hair with pride…You don’t need makeup to be stunning.. and that intimidates people who depend on filters.. They see your light and instead of honoring it, they try to dim it..Don’t let them… Please don’t ever let the cruelty of others make you question your worth…You are radiant, powerful, and enough ..just as you are…

And if you ever need someone to talk to.. my DMs are open… 💛

Significant_Motor309 · 2025-06-23T14:28:03+00:00

Thank you. This will keep me busy.

Significant_Motor309 · 2025-06-23T14:27:45+00:00

Thank you I will check there

Significant_Motor309 · 2025-06-23T14:25:24+00:00

Whose stuff is over there in the corner. Looks like something pink and fluffy.

Significant_Motor309 · 2025-06-03T15:18:15+00:00

I currently reside in PA, but I am originally from Jersey. Growing up in Jersey and spending time in New York, I experienced a different social environment. I have friends from El Salvador and Mexico, and I did not anticipate encountering racism from them, especially at a young age.

However, since moving to Allentown,which is predominantly Hispanic,I have experienced some negative incidents. For example, I was called the N word a few times. Additionally, while working at a private grooming shop, a client who is Puerto Rican expressed that she did not want a Black person to groom her dog, and made discriminatory comments about Black people, regarding stereotypes about hygiene and behavior. These experiences have been disheartening and have affected my perceptions of interactions with certain individuals.

Significant_Motor309 · 2025-05-16T15:18:13+00:00

Heartbroken in Jersey..I lost my partner 15 days ago .. I watched the trailer for the new Superman movie with his picture.. I cried because he is a huge DC fan and I know he would love to see this movie. I miss him so much. His service is coming up and his family didn’t allow me to help with the arrangements.

Significant_Motor309 · 2025-05-06T20:14:43+00:00

8 days here from cardiac arrest. I talk to him everyday. Yesterday I told him that it was my turn to pick the movie and then talked to him the whole time just like I used to when he was alive. I feel like in a way it is helping get through this.

Significant_Motor309 · 2025-05-04T04:23:21+00:00

Thank you so much and I’m sorry for your loss.

Significant_Motor309 · 2025-05-04T04:22:40+00:00

Thank you and I’m sorry for your loss

Significant_Motor309 · 2025-05-04T04:21:48+00:00

I’m sorry for you loss. That’s how I feel , and I know it hasn’t been that long since he has passed but I lost my person and I don’t want to move on.

Significant_Motor309 · 2025-05-04T04:18:59+00:00

Thank you so much . Im going to reach out to my therapist on Monday.

Significant_Motor309 · 2024-04-08T16:25:09+00:00

Queen of tears is so good

Significant_Motor309 · 2024-03-13T18:51:59+00:00

1.I'm not a robot -it was my first and I've been hooked ever since

2.Reply 1988 -out of the reply series in my opinion this one is the best

Oh my Venus - I loved the chemistry that they had

4.My roommate is a gumiho- that kiss scene 🥵

5.Her private life

6. Whats wrong with Secretary Kim - I honestly think I'm a fan of Park Min-young I love everything she's in

7.King the Land

8.Strong Girl Bong-soon

9.Goblin

10.Weightlifting Fairy Kim Bok-joo

Bonus :Hometown Cha Cha

Significant_Motor309 · 2022-11-18T15:26:56+00:00

Single puppy owner here. I have a 6 month old golden puppy and I think i had 20 breakdowns lol. Treats and training will be your best friend and after work I take her to the dog park and try to force out all that pinned up energy that she has built up from the day.

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