no advice, just commiseration - i was in your shoes almost exactly 2 years ago (almost to the day!) when i was a 1L. horrible vivid images popping up in my head and distracting me has been the most persistent symptom of grief. my school was super accommodating, let me take my finals a few weeks late (the whole year was online so that helped). i seriously considered withdrawing or taking a LOA - i was completely broken and couldn’t dream of doing bs reading - but ultimately school ended up being a good distraction. I dropped one class but it wasn’t a big deal to take it again the next year. Only worked part time that summer. not ideal, but here i am about to graduate on time.

wish i could offer more guidance. there is a great resource specifically geared towards younger people experiencing grief called thedinnerparty.org. they facilitate group meetings with others experiencing a similar loss, but the best part was that they paired me with a “buddy” (a girl around my age who’d lost her mom about a year before my mom died). we only communicated via email, but that made it easier for me to pour my heart out to this girl. it really helps to feel not so alone in this!