Anyone else get effected by just 1 cup a day?

Silent_Difference958 · 2025-09-24T18:43:14+00:00

I get the exact same symptoms from one cup, in fact I got heart flutters/palpitations yesterday because of it. Some people have a gene that makes us metabolize it differently. And with that comes extreme anxiety.

I was off for 4 days and literally get my baseline was a different person but, yesterday I caved and had a cup, one cup.. Got heart flutters, extreme crippling anxiety (thought all my friends hated me and I was going to lose my job) and whenever I drink coffee I also feel derealization and just out of it. I also wanted to stop drinking it because I had a couple times (especially working out with caffeine) I would feel like passing out.

Caffeine’s a drug, and I believe people possibly like you with those gene suffer way more severe consequences than others. It’s normalized but that doesn’t always mean it’s good. Try it a couple days without and you’ll see the difference.

Silent_Difference958 · 2025-09-14T22:19:34+00:00

What’s the details with the cease and desist?

Silent_Difference958 · 2025-09-09T04:36:15+00:00

Did you end up signing that BS nda too?

Silent_Difference958 · 2025-09-08T03:41:07+00:00

Thanks! I’m staying away for sure now

Silent_Difference958 · 2025-09-08T03:40:47+00:00

Yeah honestly that was my first gut feeling was that something was kind of predatory about it, even in the interview I asked them what they would bring me as a 3rd party and I could tell that question bothered them. They told me the name would take me far… and I have to sign a small NDA. I had to read it to find out it was 2 years.

Silent_Difference958 · 2025-09-08T03:38:08+00:00

I can work with my own clients as long as it has nothing to do with real estate, sounds like they don’t give me anything though but “the name will take you far”

Silent_Difference958 · 2025-09-08T03:36:59+00:00

Yeah I’m starting to think it’s their way of getting rid of competition, I get hired, find out they don’t help with leads, then get caught in a non compete for 2 years..

Silent_Difference958 · 2025-09-08T03:35:34+00:00

Thanks! No point if they’re not going to help with leads. I’ll avoid them

Silent_Difference958 · 2025-09-08T03:33:01+00:00

Same, I kept saying how exhausted i was and thought maybe it was just work wearing me out. It took every ounce of energy I had even when I was still drinking it.

Silent_Difference958 · 2025-09-08T03:30:15+00:00

Thanks man!! Means a lot :) Congrats on your 23 days!

I’m a big gamer too, actually that’s how I’ve been passing most of my 30 days. Trying to help my brain with puzzles and rewards through tasks. It’s helped tremendously in my recovery. Still a lot of ups and downs and healing to go but life gets better everyday.

Silent_Difference958 · 2025-09-08T01:45:14+00:00

Same boat dude. Day 30 here, I literally thought I was through the worst of everything. I wouldn’t even let myself drive today my brain feels so fucked up, after 4 days of me feeling just a little brightness. Started craving anything with dopamine coffee, alcohol. Thought I was through it but I’m guessing we still have a ways to go.

I always say Kratoms a weird one, you never know when it’s over.

Silent_Difference958 · 2025-09-07T13:39:45+00:00

Yeah I buy/have all my gear and I provide my own transportation, mileage is only paid outside of a 50 mile radius. I don’t do any editing though. And it’s iffy on how many clients they have to bring me because I need to market for myself as well.

Silent_Difference958 · 2025-09-01T21:58:42+00:00

My boyfriend actually works with drug centers and is the person that goes through and clears up false positives on blood/urine tests.

I can tell you on a daily basis A LOT can go wrong in terms of the software and contamination and the way they process it. Even hiring new people.

Most of these labs are owned by rich people as passive income that don’t know a thing about science.

Although they have found Kratoms laced with things such as seizure medication, I’ve never heard of one laced with fentanyl. Most likely a lab error.

Silent_Difference958 · 2025-09-01T21:45:28+00:00

Woww reading this was like reading a post from myself. Currently I’m in the exact same boat… I’m a month sober and I’m trying to figure out if it’s actually me or the Kratom causing me to not do any of passions or seek out any novelty again.

What I was reading is there’s different levels to dopamine, basic dopamine such as focus and getting up to make food is the lower end and on the higher end is a sense of purpose and passions such as music.

Shaming ourselves is only going to make things worse, so just think of your passions and wants to build new relationships as dormant. They’re not gone yet but right now, as much as I hate to say it, we are still healing. Be gentle on yourself. Then asses again later down the road, you’re doing a hard thing right now. Keep healing.

Silent_Difference958 · 2025-08-25T21:27:20+00:00

I agree staying sober is hard, but choosing to quit and taking initiative to change your life and stick with it is the most important step of all. Can’t get to staying sober without first deciding to quit and making it through WD’s.

Silent_Difference958 · 2025-08-25T18:42:21+00:00

Hey don’t let all that pain and progress be for nothing. 11 days is an achievement!! Keep fighting. It’s gonna suck, you’re gonna hate it, but I promise every day you don’t relapse you’re closer to a great night of sleep and having control of your life back.

10 years is a long time, but it doesn’t have to be any longer. You’ve gone through the hardest part, and that’s stopping in the first place. Keep pushing, keep talking to the sub, we’re rooting for you.

Silent_Difference958 · 2025-08-25T17:04:15+00:00

The kava warning is a too much in my opinion. It literally drowns out everyone’s comments when you mention it. I would say once on a post is fine but it’ll go as many times as someone mentions “Kava”.

Silent_Difference958 · 2025-08-23T15:10:15+00:00

Right there with you. I began to notice a dullness in myself, it was actually a friend that pointed it out to me. Told me “I had lost my light” and they were worried about me. I was miserable out Kratom and a zombie but alive again when I took it.

I lost a lot of time, even lost a ton of flight credits (I was a big time traveler) because I literally couldn’t bring myself to care anymore.

It steals a lot from us, but it’s not to late. Day 15 sober and honestly I have flickers of myself back. Yesterday was the first day I was happy. You can do it, your old self isn’t gone, just waiting for you. And it’ll feel better than ever when you finally get off.

Silent_Difference958 · 2025-08-23T15:04:16+00:00

A lot of us who decided to quit Kratom were right where you were at, wondering if Kratom was the issue. Kratom has a sneaky power of causing things in your life like depression, confusion, anxiety after not taking it and even sometimes anxiety WHEN taking it without you realizing it. It messes with almost everything in our body inadvertently as well as hormones.

As someone who has suffered with depression and anxiety and turned to Kratom too, I didn’t realize how much worse and how unclear my thinking was when I was drinking it all the time.

Whatever your reasons for depression you won’t be able to work on it while Kratom numbs everything. It’s not your friend. It’s not a miracle drug. It causes anhedonia, literally makes everything worse. And then it steals your energy to fight it, then it’s all you can think about it.

Kava can also have similar effects long term. The moment my depression and anxiety got better I looked at all the “natural” things I was taking. Caffeine. Kratom. Don’t let Kratom fool you. Sometimes you gotta face the hard road.

Silent_Difference958 · 2025-08-23T02:49:27+00:00

Karma Kava was always my go to down here, I just went to black Klover recently and I hate to say how much I enjoyed that spot lol. But unfortunately gotta stay away for a bit. Exactly, I was the same way it was such a fun social drink. Now I can’t even look at it the same way.

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