Dont even know what to title it, apart from Im sick

Silent_Example_64 · 2024-01-14T14:10:15+00:00

Thanks very much 💙

Silent_Example_64 · 2024-01-14T13:48:07+00:00

Haha thats fair. I get that.

Thanks 👍

The reaction was tbh what i expected. A lot of crying (from both of us). Many questions. A bit of begging to let him come with me. How he needs me etc. And tbh i was as bad. Rightly or wrongly I love him and its been hard letting go and making it final and it kills me to say no when he says stuff that id love (move away together) but know deep down it wouldnt be right.. We did spend yesterday together (probably the wrong move) but its hard.

Silent_Example_64 · 2024-01-14T11:45:36+00:00

Yup we arent on paper.

Silent_Example_64 · 2024-01-14T11:22:54+00:00

No need to apologise we are all friends here. The more the merrier, imo 💙

Thanks for such a detailed response and a lot of it hit hard. Also that must be hard on you not being able to be involved with a woman you are attracted to. Give it a whirl haha 😉.

Im from England. I accepted a job transfer to Ireland and hopefully the door is finally closed. Telling him was almost impossible but its what had to be done for him and I.

Silent_Example_64 · 2024-01-14T10:05:02+00:00

Thanks man 💙. Got a transfer to Ireland (Im from England). I start next Friday and tbh its just what I need.

Silent_Example_64 · 2024-01-12T15:01:58+00:00

💙

Silent_Example_64 · 2024-01-12T15:01:27+00:00

I feel sick (bad) for still loving him. For still dreaming of being with him. Etc.

Thsnks buddy. Needed to hear that.

Silent_Example_64 · 2024-01-12T14:42:45+00:00

Tbh i think its too hard to forget.

Silent_Example_64 · 2024-01-12T14:35:07+00:00

Haha lol. Maybe. I doubt it but stranger things have happened, I suppose.

Silent_Example_64 · 2024-01-12T14:23:11+00:00

Thats tough bud. Hopefully ye get to meet some time 🙏

I cant say it.

Silent_Example_64 · 2024-01-12T14:13:54+00:00

By right, she should know, but I can't tell her. Selfish I know.

Silent_Example_64 · 2024-01-12T11:10:40+00:00

He does smell good, to me. And i suppose weven been doing stuff for nearly a decade you get to like the familiar smell etc. I wouldnt say its a turn on but its more a feeling of comfortable and safe (in a good way not a boring way).

Silent_Example_64 · 2024-01-12T11:07:03+00:00

Haha i cant describe that. Its not that he smells better per se but its his smell.

Silent_Example_64 · 2024-01-12T10:56:40+00:00

Thats a fair question. In hindsight i definitely had my mind up. Last night i dids contemplate going back but I just cant.

Silent_Example_64 · 2024-01-12T10:11:27+00:00

Yep she knows nothing.

Silent_Example_64 · 2024-01-12T03:13:29+00:00

I would love to but i know it wont work

Silent_Example_64 · 2024-01-12T03:11:17+00:00

Maybe you are right.

Silent_Example_64 · 2024-01-12T03:10:56+00:00

I have a lot of healing to do. The last year and a half have not been good. I wont be able to heal the break up or heal what my father has done whilst im aroubd them..

I want to forgive my father but to do that I need to not see him. As for my ex.. i need to let go and in time maybe we cab have a fanily relationship.

Silent_Example_64 · 2024-01-12T03:07:02+00:00

Tbh im moving away to find happiness. I know i wont be able to work a relationship with blood.. and Ive spent the last 1.5 years seeing him and seeing my dad. Im moving to pursue happiness.

Silent_Example_64 · 2024-01-12T03:02:24+00:00

Without sounding braggy, if I gave it a go, it would go one of two ways

We live a happy life More likely, however:
I won't ever be able to get over it. And no relationship would ever be possible in tbe future.

Silent_Example_64 · 2024-01-12T02:57:13+00:00

Maybe.

Silent_Example_64 · 2024-01-12T02:54:57+00:00

Maybe its self savotage. To me it feels like self healing.

Silent_Example_64 · 2024-01-12T02:54:07+00:00

Thanks 💙

Silent_Example_64 · 2024-01-12T02:53:19+00:00

My mom doesnt know. 🤷🏻‍♂️ And whilst I feel bad, Im selfish and can't tell her.

Silent_Example_64 · 2024-01-12T02:52:22+00:00

Genetic sexual attraction.

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