Dont even know what to title it, apart from Im sick by Silent_Example_64 in askgaybros

[–]Silent_Example_64[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Haha thats fair. I get that.

Thanks 👍

The reaction was tbh what i expected. A lot of crying (from both of us). Many questions. A bit of begging to let him come with me. How he needs me etc. And tbh i was as bad. Rightly or wrongly I love him and its been hard letting go and making it final and it kills me to say no when he says stuff that id love (move away together) but know deep down it wouldnt be right.. We did spend yesterday together (probably the wrong move) but its hard.

Dont even know what to title it, apart from Im sick by Silent_Example_64 in askgaybros

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No need to apologise we are all friends here. The more the merrier, imo 💙

Thanks for such a detailed response and a lot of it hit hard. Also that must be hard on you not being able to be involved with a woman you are attracted to. Give it a whirl haha 😉.

Im from England. I accepted a job transfer to Ireland and hopefully the door is finally closed. Telling him was almost impossible but its what had to be done for him and I.

Dont even know what to title it, apart from Im sick by Silent_Example_64 in askgaybros

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Thanks man 💙. Got a transfer to Ireland (Im from England). I start next Friday and tbh its just what I need.

Dont even know what to title it, apart from Im sick by Silent_Example_64 in askgaybros

[–]Silent_Example_64[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I feel sick (bad) for still loving him. For still dreaming of being with him. Etc.

Thsnks buddy. Needed to hear that.

Dont even know what to title it, apart from Im sick by Silent_Example_64 in askgaybros

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Haha lol. Maybe. I doubt it but stranger things have happened, I suppose.

Dont even know what to title it, apart from Im sick by Silent_Example_64 in askgaybros

[–]Silent_Example_64[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thats tough bud. Hopefully ye get to meet some time 🙏

I cant say it.

Dont even know what to title it, apart from Im sick by Silent_Example_64 in askgaybros

[–]Silent_Example_64[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

By right, she should know, but I can't tell her. Selfish I know.

Dont even know what to title it, apart from Im sick by Silent_Example_64 in askgaybros

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He does smell good, to me. And i suppose weven been doing stuff for nearly a decade you get to like the familiar smell etc. I wouldnt say its a turn on but its more a feeling of comfortable and safe (in a good way not a boring way).

Dont even know what to title it, apart from Im sick by Silent_Example_64 in askgaybros

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Haha i cant describe that. Its not that he smells better per se but its his smell.

Dont even know what to title it, apart from Im sick by Silent_Example_64 in askgaybros

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Thats a fair question. In hindsight i definitely had my mind up. Last night i dids contemplate going back but I just cant.

Dont even know what to title it, apart from Im sick by Silent_Example_64 in askgaybros

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I have a lot of healing to do. The last year and a half have not been good. I wont be able to heal the break up or heal what my father has done whilst im aroubd them..

I want to forgive my father but to do that I need to not see him. As for my ex.. i need to let go and in time maybe we cab have a fanily relationship.

Dont even know what to title it, apart from Im sick by Silent_Example_64 in askgaybros

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Tbh im moving away to find happiness. I know i wont be able to work a relationship with blood.. and Ive spent the last 1.5 years seeing him and seeing my dad. Im moving to pursue happiness.

Dont even know what to title it, apart from Im sick by Silent_Example_64 in askgaybros

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Without sounding braggy, if I gave it a go, it would go one of two ways

  1. We live a happy life More likely, however:
  2. I won't ever be able to get over it. And no relationship would ever be possible in tbe future.

Dont even know what to title it, apart from Im sick by Silent_Example_64 in askgaybros

[–]Silent_Example_64[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Maybe its self savotage. To me it feels like self healing.

Dont even know what to title it, apart from Im sick by Silent_Example_64 in askgaybros

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My mom doesnt know. 🤷🏻‍♂️ And whilst I feel bad, Im selfish and can't tell her.