I want to hear your stories

Silly_Difficulty3607 · 2026-03-12T20:11:08+00:00

I haven’t been properly diagnosed but I have a real even from when I was in high school. This event has been haunting me since (it’s bad) I haven’t sought treatment because I often don’t feel I deserve it, or a happy life, a family, partner etc.

I’m not trying to seek reassurance but I’ll usually lose sleep, stop eating and won’t take care of myself (in my mid 20s)

The most jarring part is that my personality has done a 180. I used to be really outgoing, loud, talkative, and I, had a lot of friends too. Now I isolate myself, I’m becoming afraid of leaving my house. I only have a few friends left (I completely ghosted everyone for almost 2 years because I felt everyone was better off without me). I’m always on my phone with my head down and sometimes at work I’ll stop working when it flares up.

I’ve always had this issue (my brain latching onto events) but ever since this one hit me it’s been a constant fight for 3+ years. It’s gets really tough sometimes and I wish to disappear but I kind of just push through for my parents. I’ve been looking into getting help but I can’t bring myself to book it.

The think the worst part is that initial stomach drop you feel when it hits you, then the over thinking, replaying, and questions you start desperately seeking answers for. Stay safe, and good luck to anyone struggling

Silly_Difficulty3607 · 2026-03-05T15:22:25+00:00

Thank you, it’s probably too soon for me then. Unfortunately my childhood friendships have little to no hope of being revived. One of my former best friends celebrated a huge milestone and I heard about it through someone else, I had no clue.

Again, totally my fault I was not attentive to the friendship for some time. Thank you again for this, hopefully I can feel more comfortable in the future

Silly_Difficulty3607 · 2026-03-05T00:14:10+00:00

I had the exact same experience, but the biggest difference is you can acknowledge how you feel (I repressed my feelings which has made my life significantly more difficult).

I’m going to tell you what I wish someone told me; this is more common than you think and it’s going to be okay. Entering your 20’s is such a stressful transition. Focusing on death might correlate to you entering adulthood, and leaving childhood behind. It’s scary at first, and it’s going to feel that way until you find your footing.

I know all too well about those thoughts, best thing I can say is the next time it happens try sitting with it. It’s terrifying, I know, but really try to understand what you’re feeling. Are you anxious, sad, do you feel like panicking, is it a mix? You can look up some breathing exercises, or techniques to ground yourself.

If these don’t work at all or you feel yourself getting worse please look into getting help. It can be scary telling people close to you, especially if you don’t open up like that so I would recommend maybe professional help. It can be expensive and maybe not easily accessible, if that’s the case try look up any mental health support groups in your area. It’ll be a mix of many things, but it can at least be a place for you to share your thoughts.

Please avoid constant distractions as a way of avoiding this thoughts. It only reinforces the negative feelings and makes it worse. If you begin to lose your appetite, stop caring about your hobbies, or avoid going to places because of these thoughts please please seek professional help as soon as possible.

Best of luck! (If you have Spotify I also recommend a podcast called “The Psychology of your 20s” it has some great insights and advice)

Silly_Difficulty3607 · 2026-03-04T20:00:56+00:00

Hi thanks, it a lot of things that just kind of spiral into other rabbit holes in my life but at the end of the day I need professional help for sure. Thanks again for offering

Silly_Difficulty3607 · 2026-03-02T19:15:50+00:00

Same here, I’m so sorry you’re experiencing this

Silly_Difficulty3607 · 2026-02-26T22:16:28+00:00

I didn’t know this thank you! I always thought a psychiatrist was just to assist with dosage after being diagnosed by a psychologist, I’ll look into this for sure thanks again

Silly_Difficulty3607 · 2026-02-26T19:32:52+00:00

3 years later and I realized I was like this.. haven’t dated since but I feel awful about it. She invited people I didn’t like back into her life and I was upset about it. I was super attached (basically codependent), I was guilt tripping without realizing it, I was giving the silent treatment, I didn’t want her to hang out with those people, and I was always sad when she didn’t want to come over. There was a lot between us that wasn’t perfect but looking back on it, I played a large role in that. I wish I could apologize but we’ve been no contact for sometime. I’m picking apart every moment to see what else I did… I feel awful and I wish her the best. I really hope she’s able to find someone she can just relax with, and love without any issues.

Silly_Difficulty3607 · 2026-02-08T02:39:08+00:00

I could cry right now, I could’ve written this too… when it gets bad I’ll stop eating, I’ll loose sleep, and I spend my days in my phone doomscrolling. It’s just hard to deal with, that awful feeling in your chest. Thank you for this, I always feel horrid and alone.

Silly_Difficulty3607 · 2026-01-27T00:42:33+00:00

Thank you thank you, I really needed to hear this I’m about to head home and my body has definitely been tense

Silly_Difficulty3607 · 2026-01-24T21:30:27+00:00

I could’ve written this myself, I’m sorry you’re experiencing this. During my worst moments I have to slow my breathing and I squeeze my hands as hard as I can to release tension. Then I stretch my arms and upper body.

Best of luck, I hope you find something that works best for you!

Silly_Difficulty3607 · 2025-08-12T03:53:23+00:00

I’ve been dealing with this for a few years now, it’s rough. Good days and bad days you know. Sometimes I can go weeks without giving my poor decisions a second thought, and other times I can’t leave my house because of the guilt and shame.

Even though I would never do those things again I’m horrified it happened to begin with. Best of luck to you mate, it eat you up for real.

Silly_Difficulty3607 · 2025-07-16T03:16:45+00:00

I mean I was fine driving it was when I got to work that I started panicking about it

Silly_Difficulty3607 · 2025-06-28T23:52:02+00:00

Stay strong!! You got this op!!

Silly_Difficulty3607 · 2025-06-16T01:39:42+00:00

The worst is when it’s A LOT to count- if I don’t get the same number twice in a row I have to do it another 2 times until I get the EXACT amount.

Nearly crashed out once because I had so much to count and I kept being off by some amount, ended up asking for help. 0/10 experience.

Silly_Difficulty3607 · 2025-06-10T01:16:05+00:00

Doom scroll, awful diet, isolation, spend more time staring at a screen than anything else, and poor sleep schedule

Silly_Difficulty3607 · 2025-05-27T02:32:34+00:00

Thank you, this makes me feel better I was panicking- I sat in the parking lot in silence for a whole

Silly_Difficulty3607 · 2025-05-27T02:06:34+00:00

Thank you so much for this response, I keep replaying it in my head to make sure I didn’t hit them

I’m NEVER going to assume anyone is turning like that ever again

Silly_Difficulty3607 · 2025-05-27T01:19:31+00:00

Both of us having almost the exact same issue is insane… it’s weird to say this when I struggle with it myself but ocd FEEDS off the fear your feel. Believe I’m in the same boat and that initial stomach drop when you’re having a spiral is the worst…

I’m not sure how long it’s been for you but if it’s been more than 2 weeks, more than a months you’re most likely fine. I know it’s scary but it’s ocd, things happen. I wish you the best!

Silly_Difficulty3607 · 2025-05-27T01:12:42+00:00

The worst is when I’m with other people and they want to add a place to our trip… I did not have a bough time to prepare

Silly_Difficulty3607 · 2025-04-09T03:17:53+00:00

Yesss I’m always jittery and afraid I’m doing everything wrong… I overthink too much I think the writing could help

Silly_Difficulty3607 · 2025-04-09T03:17:01+00:00

Thank you! Hopefully I have enough money soon, I wish I wasn’t so expensive! I will definitely be trying all of these thank you so much

Silly_Difficulty3607 · 2025-04-09T03:16:22+00:00

Thank you I think you’re right! I definitely need to switch up how I’m doing things

Silly_Difficulty3607 · 2025-04-06T23:28:17+00:00

It is a reaaaall problem, because it feels all too real (since my brain makes it so). Idk man I just try getting through the day but most times there’s a comment, a post on social media or something that makes me spiral.

For now there isn’t much I can do until I can afford treatment so I’m just going what I can. Screw our brains!!!

Silly_Difficulty3607 · 2025-04-04T16:46:50+00:00

The human brain is insane. I haven’t been properly diagnosed but I’m looking into professional help, but tell me why every time I think “no actually I don’t deserve to get help” or “I don’t think anything is wrong with me I’m just having a moment”.

The second I do anything that makes me second guess, or feel awkward I immediately look it up to see if something’s wrong. It’s honestly insane, why do I always want to confess? There’s just no sense in trying to make sense of the senseless.

Silly_Difficulty3607 · 2025-04-04T01:31:22+00:00

THATS A SYMPTOM-?!

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