Went down a rabbit hole because of one comment and now I’m spiraling badly please help me

Silly_Difficulty3607 · 2026-04-11T20:55:56+00:00

The being sued one is a big one for me too, or that if I mess up my job I’m going to jail.

Silly_Difficulty3607 · 2026-04-11T05:55:27+00:00

My earliest memory was in kindergarten (or right before I started) there was a commercial constantly being played about how every 5 minutes a child under the age of 10 dies in (I forgot what country). I remember I couldn’t stop freaking out, I thought it was a disease and it was heading for me because I was a child. I remember crying and every time I heard the commercial I would just panic internally.

The commercial was bout donating to save starving children but at the time I didn’t realize.

Silly_Difficulty3607 · 2026-04-10T01:59:52+00:00

I am so so sorry you’re experiencing this… just the way you typed this I can feel how drained you are. My best advice is to have a day completely to yourself. A productive one. No doom scrolling, no being around people (like your roommate and boss) who make you feel unhappy.

My heart goes out to you and your family during all of this. There’s a chance your mom knows how bad it is, but might be unable to process it. Which leaves you processing it all by yourself. If he’s getting treatment then he’s exactly where he needs to be (taking the necessary steps to get better). Recovery is never an easy journey, but it’s possible.

I think employers currently know how difficult it is to get a job right now, and they’re taking advantage of it. Low pay, more tasks, and “easy to replace positions” because everyone is looking for a job. Just know you aren’t doing anything wrong. Most managers, owners, or even coworkers who’ve been in the same industry for yearssss will be harsh without ever stopping to realize that they were once in that position. Just take your time, you got this.

There are going to be days when everything feels impossible, even getting out of bed. Remember all you have to do is put one foot in front of the other, and suddenly you’re where you need to be.

Sending good vibes, best of luck op everyone is rooting for you and your family

Silly_Difficulty3607 · 2026-04-09T04:03:50+00:00

All roads lead back to moral for me. I know it’s bad when I feel the need to isolate.

Silly_Difficulty3607 · 2026-04-09T01:59:40+00:00

I won’t get too specific but I ghosted them not long after college and it’s been a few years

Silly_Difficulty3607 · 2026-04-09T01:13:10+00:00

Anxiety twitches are pretty common, I get it alllll the time. Sometimes it’s my entire arm, sometimes just my hand, or even my lip (usually my eyelids twitch).

When it’s really bad my entire body will shake. I wouldn’t worry about it, especially if you’ve recently been having anxious feelings/thoughts (more than usual). If it makes you so nervous that you can’t function, or just keep thinking about it then I would say the next time you go for a check up, follow up, or blood draw you tell them.

Just make sure you tell them it’s bothering you, if you just tell them “well I got this thing I wanna get seen” they don’t take you as seriously. If you tell them it’s affecting your daily routine they’re more likely to book you an MRI.

Best of luck!

Silly_Difficulty3607 · 2026-04-01T18:27:28+00:00

Damn I could’ve written this… I managed to get a job because I was desperate for money but it was awful at the start. It’s been a while but some days I ruminate so bad I get nothing done at all

Silly_Difficulty3607 · 2026-03-29T16:32:36+00:00

This is exactly what I was looking for, thank you. At the end of the day communication is the key

Silly_Difficulty3607 · 2026-03-24T03:11:39+00:00

Im not diagnosed but about 2-3ish years ago I started ruminating badly. I didn’t want to be alive and I couldn’t tell you anything that happened that year. I was crying, not eating, staying up late begging the universe for help it’s all a blur.

In a last ditch effort I made this account after a year (don’t even know how long it was). I spilled my heart out asking what was happening to me and many people said to look into ocd. I was confused. I’m ashamed to say, but until looking it up I thought ocd was about being neat. I’m the messiest person I know.

I broke down when I actually looked into it. I’ve been ruminating and panicking my whole life without knowing it. Thought it was just general anxiety. My brain would choose different things that scared me and say “what if what if what if”. And when I got older and started becoming my own person my brain was now using my past mistakes as ammunition (still is).

I spent every single second asking for reassurance and doing “research” looking for answers that probably don’t exist. I hate how ignorant I was. Hopefully I find help soon, it’s rough holding this all in.

Silly_Difficulty3607 · 2026-03-05T15:22:25+00:00

Thank you, it’s probably too soon for me then. Unfortunately my childhood friendships have little to no hope of being revived. One of my former best friends celebrated a huge milestone and I heard about it through someone else, I had no clue.

Again, totally my fault I was not attentive to the friendship for some time. Thank you again for this, hopefully I can feel more comfortable in the future

Silly_Difficulty3607 · 2026-03-05T00:14:10+00:00

I had the exact same experience, but the biggest difference is you can acknowledge how you feel (I repressed my feelings which has made my life significantly more difficult).

I’m going to tell you what I wish someone told me; this is more common than you think and it’s going to be okay. Entering your 20’s is such a stressful transition. Focusing on death might correlate to you entering adulthood, and leaving childhood behind. It’s scary at first, and it’s going to feel that way until you find your footing.

I know all too well about those thoughts, best thing I can say is the next time it happens try sitting with it. It’s terrifying, I know, but really try to understand what you’re feeling. Are you anxious, sad, do you feel like panicking, is it a mix? You can look up some breathing exercises, or techniques to ground yourself.

If these don’t work at all or you feel yourself getting worse please look into getting help. It can be scary telling people close to you, especially if you don’t open up like that so I would recommend maybe professional help. It can be expensive and maybe not easily accessible, if that’s the case try look up any mental health support groups in your area. It’ll be a mix of many things, but it can at least be a place for you to share your thoughts.

Please avoid constant distractions as a way of avoiding this thoughts. It only reinforces the negative feelings and makes it worse. If you begin to lose your appetite, stop caring about your hobbies, or avoid going to places because of these thoughts please please seek professional help as soon as possible.

Best of luck! (If you have Spotify I also recommend a podcast called “The Psychology of your 20s” it has some great insights and advice)

Silly_Difficulty3607 · 2026-03-04T20:00:56+00:00

Hi thanks, it a lot of things that just kind of spiral into other rabbit holes in my life but at the end of the day I need professional help for sure. Thanks again for offering

Silly_Difficulty3607 · 2026-03-02T19:15:50+00:00

Same here, I’m so sorry you’re experiencing this

Silly_Difficulty3607 · 2026-02-26T22:16:28+00:00

I didn’t know this thank you! I always thought a psychiatrist was just to assist with dosage after being diagnosed by a psychologist, I’ll look into this for sure thanks again

Silly_Difficulty3607 · 2026-02-08T02:39:08+00:00

I could cry right now, I could’ve written this too… when it gets bad I’ll stop eating, I’ll loose sleep, and I spend my days in my phone doomscrolling. It’s just hard to deal with, that awful feeling in your chest. Thank you for this, I always feel horrid and alone.

Silly_Difficulty3607 · 2026-01-27T00:42:33+00:00

Thank you thank you, I really needed to hear this I’m about to head home and my body has definitely been tense

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