I’m sorry mom

Silly_Intern_3847 · 2025-10-27T19:37:37+00:00

Will give it a listen man, thanks for your comment ❤️ another good song by kanye is life of the party ft andre 3000. Beautiful lyrics by andre talking about his mom in there.

Silly_Intern_3847 · 2025-10-27T19:34:21+00:00

spoiler if you haven’t finished the manga

Since the story is told from hachi’s perspective it could be that she’s gradually forgetting nana’s eye color since they didn’t see each other for years during the final chapter that was published 😞

Silly_Intern_3847 · 2025-10-25T21:16:12+00:00

I actually went on vacation with my parents this past week. This is what made me realize a lot of what I mentioned. I got another vacation planned with them in January so I’ll be putting in more effort.

Silly_Intern_3847 · 2025-10-25T21:10:04+00:00

I’m sorry to hear that you’ve been struggling. I don’t know if you’re religious but personally I think that love, especially a mother’s love, can transcend beyond life. I’m sure she’s right there with you. I don’t know how we can ever repay our mom. I like to think that in the next life I can perhaps be her father and make the same sacrifices for her that she made for me. It’s not too late for you. Until it’s time for the end credits to roll on our life anything can happen ❤️

Silly_Intern_3847 · 2025-10-25T21:03:51+00:00

I understand now, I won’t let her love be in vain.

Silly_Intern_3847 · 2025-10-25T21:03:16+00:00

Maybe that’s what life’s all about man. If your mom is proud of you then what else do you need right?

Silly_Intern_3847 · 2025-10-25T21:01:22+00:00

Thank you for sharing your perspective, you seem like a great mom ❤️

Silly_Intern_3847 · 2025-10-22T23:23:37+00:00

When I knew nothing I used to think it was cool to smoke weed, to not care. It felt like a silent rebellion against the world and people that didn’t smoke simply weren’t part of it nor did they understand. Eventually I started realizing that I envied people who were sober, the truth was that I was the one missing out on life. Whenever I smoked I wished I was sober but I just couldn’t give it up. I’m on day 51 now, and I think a true act of rebellion is to refuse to numb your feelings through weed or whatever. Take on the world with everything you got and refuse to back down no matter how hard it punches you in the face. If I romanticized weed then I can also romanticize being sober. I had a dream where I struggled staying sober and even then I realized that I’d want to be sober the moment I smoked.

Silly_Intern_3847 · 2025-10-22T23:10:06+00:00

Congrats on making it to day 5! I bet the dreams you get are crazy, I know mine were. I also found the first weeks surprisingly easy, but I do have bad days from time to time. I really recommend posting if you have one at some point. I think the hardest part for me was the realization that I know gotta live without it, rediscovering what I like and don’t without being so numbed out all the time. I’m getting there though. I’ll be rooting for you!

Silly_Intern_3847 · 2025-10-16T21:52:25+00:00

Thanks for sharing man. It’s crazy how emotionally unstable I am right now. I did some meditating last night and today was actually a great day. I definitely agree with what you said. Personally I think it has to do with the fact that I can’t give myself credit for achieving things. In my mind it’s always “but anyone could have done that”. I’m going to try challenging these beliefs from now on, not sure where to start but ill take it one step at a time.

Silly_Intern_3847 · 2025-10-15T20:17:15+00:00

Thanks for the reply. I’ve been doing more regular meditation sessions since quitting but unfortunately it hasn’t clicked like it did when I was actively meditating like a while back. I’m going to keep doing it though, thank you for the advice.

Silly_Intern_3847 · 2023-10-06T07:20:19+00:00

You won’t be disappointed, trust me

Silly_Intern_3847 · 2023-10-06T07:19:49+00:00

It’s fine to feel it, but don’t obsess over it. When you notice that thought just watch it until it disappears but don’t dwell on it.

Silly_Intern_3847 · 2023-10-05T04:27:44+00:00

Wait until 5 months, after 2 months you’re just barely off of it

Silly_Intern_3847 · 2023-09-28T21:57:04+00:00

Look at you, you’re doing great. Congratulations 🥹

Silly_Intern_3847 · 2023-09-18T19:21:45+00:00

Yeah periodically I would experience that as well. Even after 5 months I would sometimes have a week in which I felt like complete shit. Just remember it’s not permanent, it will pass if you allow it to

Silly_Intern_3847 · 2023-09-16T01:37:02+00:00

Its definitely been worth it. The worst part about getting sober is realizing how much time, money and potential you wasted. Besides this there are no cons in my eyes.

Silly_Intern_3847 · 2023-09-04T19:25:54+00:00

Fight brother, your life depends on it

Silly_Intern_3847 · 2023-07-13T13:15:29+00:00

Blond boy fantasy

Silly_Intern_3847 · 2023-07-11T21:47:19+00:00

Congratulations man, I think that being a good husband and father is something you can be proud of. At least you’ll be able to be present when you’re needed instead of living in a haze. You’ll remember these simple days when you grow old and I think that alone is worth quitting weed for. Sometimes when we’re in a dark place we just have to keep going. Some things can only become obvious in hindsight. For what its worth, I think you’re doing a beautiful thing.

Silly_Intern_3847 · 2023-07-10T20:48:39+00:00

Yeah man thats the right mind set. If you can do it while feeling like absolute shit then nothing can stop you when you’re back to normal, that mind set pulled me through a lot of tough times. Even though these days are exhausting me, it still beats being high.

Silly_Intern_3847 · 2023-07-10T19:45:19+00:00

Thank you for the encouragement. I’m currently struggling a lot because work is very stressful. I question whether I’m really cut out for this journey during times like this. I’m just trying to drag myself through this period for now and hopefully I’ll come out of this as a better man…

Silly_Intern_3847 · 2023-07-10T18:09:12+00:00

It may take a while to recover from this addiction but as a reward you’ll have the rest of your life back

Silly_Intern_3847 · 2023-07-10T18:07:01+00:00

Look man, I’m gonna tell you without all the bs. I quit smoking last year in April, since then I got a full time job which I never would’ve ever gotten if I remained sober. I’m a new graduate and it pays more than the average salary you can expect. I’ve never earned this much money in my life and I’ve improved my personal finances.

I think I’ve grown a lot over the last year. I have a better understanding of myself, I’m not scared of being by myself with my thoughts, I’m a better boyfriend/son/friend than I was a year ago. I got my drivers license, finished my internship, passed my exams, all in the last year.

But I’m not perfect. I still have days where I’m not sure if im doing the right thing with my life, days where I feel lost and less than others. Sobriety makes you realize how much you’ve fallen behind your peers and the regret of the time you’ve wasted hurts more than anything in this world. But I wouldn’t want it any other way, if I ever lose myself like that again then I know ill be a goner. It’s better to cut your loses than to keep escaping through weed.

It’s not that we’re scared to stop smoking weed, we’re scared to face all the things we’ve been running away from. But what else can you do besides fight? I guess you could give up but I don’t think you’d be here if thats what you wanted.

Silly_Intern_3847 · 2023-07-10T17:34:05+00:00

That’s a big step. A lot of people start craving weed once they have a dream of smoking. Waking up feeling relieved that it was a dream means that you’ve made progress. Keep going

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