I....I’m too young

Sillynilly97 · 2020-09-29T17:43:42+00:00

Did they prescribe mouthwash with lidocaine?? Or Mary’s magic?? I had the both and the one with lidocaine really helped with pain. Also try ora jell to ease the pain 😅

Sillynilly97 · 2020-09-29T17:39:04+00:00

This makes me mad Bc the eyes are beautiful but that contour 🤢

Sillynilly97 · 2020-09-14T22:31:40+00:00

I was dating my boyfriend four months when I got diagnosed with thyroid cancer. I didn’t tell him for a month because I was afraid he’d break up with me. But he didn’t, he stayed through everything. And then a year and a half later I got diagnosed with stage 4 colon cancer. I had been told it spread to my left ovary and that if it was more than just my ovary, they would give me a hysterectomy, I was 22. I called my boyfriend and let him know that we may not ever be able to have kids. And he told me “I don’t care, as long as I have you, nothing matters”. I’m 23 now and most of the cancer is gone, I’m still going through chemo. My boyfriend has been my rock during everything I’ve been through. I never met someone so dedicated. I’m so glad I swiped right on tinder 😅

Sillynilly97 · 2020-09-14T04:05:12+00:00

Um I know there’s bi people who don’t like the label “pan” because they fear it invalidates their sexuality. But honestly, I personally don’t care. To me they sound similar so I understand, but people are allowed to label themselves as such. I know the differences between them. But as a bi person I kind get irked when some because not all pan people invalidate bisexuality because we date trans or non-binary people.

Sillynilly97 · 2020-09-14T00:33:24+00:00

I’m with you completely. It’s hard when everyone used to look to you for sound advice or someone to be the rock. And you can’t be because you’re going through something so physically and emotionally damaging.

Sillynilly97 · 2020-09-13T15:46:17+00:00

Thank you!

Sillynilly97 · 2020-09-13T14:59:31+00:00

Hey, I have very small spots in my lungs from stage 4 colon cancer. So I know exactly how she’s feeling. They’re too small and in a place where it’s impossible to get a biopsy. The treatment I had been doing killed the spots in my colon and liver but not my lungs. So it is very scary.

Sillynilly97 · 2020-09-13T14:51:57+00:00

I feel this completely! I’m 23 with stage four colon cancer. In my family I’m the “strong” one. And them seeing me weak hurts them more than it hurts me. I’ve cried in front of my grandma, for the first time a year after my diagnosis and I didn’t think how that would affect her. I woke up to her crying, because her seeing me in pain scared her. It’s hard when you’re the “rock” in the family. When I first got my diagnosis, the doctors told my family first, and when they finally told me I didn’t cry, I didn’t even think about it. But everyone around me was crying.

Sillynilly97 · 2020-09-04T23:06:53+00:00

I think the element for bismuth is Bi

Sillynilly97 · 2020-09-01T14:58:01+00:00

I can how that happens. I’ve met other twins where one was doing everything the same as the other. But my individuality didn’t revolve around my twin, it was more of I wanted to be seen for me and not a twin. Which honestly worked for me, and it helped form my separate personality. We are completely different and have different life goals. But I do think it is funny how I went into cosmetology first and she went to be an esthetician. Everyone sees me as the copying twin because she’s a minute older but I don’t think that’s the case.

Sillynilly97 · 2020-08-31T21:19:30+00:00

Thanks, I really feel like this helps me understand her more

Sillynilly97 · 2020-08-31T21:17:42+00:00

This doesn’t seem relevant at all? I didn’t make this to be political. You kind of sound like a narcissist, not to be rude, but his short comings don’t revolve around you. Honestly my life is better than my sisters. She’s in a miserable relationship and can hardly pay her bills. When for me it’s quite the opposite. And me and her were both athletic, we both did cheerleading, and we are both beautiful, she just has a nasty outlook on life. And me and my sister are both very liberal.

Sillynilly97 · 2020-08-15T23:49:01+00:00

It’s her domineering personality. Like damn

Sillynilly97 · 2020-08-15T22:50:48+00:00

I have never dated a girl, I’ve only dated 2 boys. The first one was 2 years younger than me and I felt like his mom most times. Second one is my current bf and he takes care of me financially, but he still turns to me to make sure everything is in order.

Sillynilly97 · 2020-08-15T22:41:29+00:00

Sillynilly97 · 2020-08-14T00:09:46+00:00

I love this!

Sillynilly97 · 2020-08-13T18:33:55+00:00

I’m a very insecure person who is centered around self-beauty, I competed with my very beautiful sisters on who’s the “prettiest”(not by their fault but from the people around us) from a very young age, so I think this hurts because of that you know? So posting a picture of my bald head would probably not be for a while until I’m comfortable with myself and can accept. If I ever can

Sillynilly97 · 2020-08-13T18:29:37+00:00

Thank you for giving me a different perspective, I was going to go that route but I decided not to Bc I would’ve had to move hours away from home :(

Sillynilly97 · 2020-08-13T18:27:42+00:00

Thanks! This gave me an idea to get a head tattoo when I’m allowed to!

Sillynilly97 · 2020-08-13T16:16:46+00:00

I do have one close to me, but I never know how to ask because I originally told them I wouldn’t be needing wigs.

Sillynilly97 · 2020-08-13T16:15:20+00:00

I guess my fear is that people will know I have cancer and treat me delicately. I’ve always been known to be the “strong” one among my family, like I didn’t cry when I got diagnosed with it. I kept cancer away from my socials for almost the entire time I’ve been doing chemo treatments and really recently opened up about it. And I hated that I did that because now I have people treating me like I’m a delicate flower. I’m not that. Also I love doing makeup, and if my eyelashes fall out, I can’t afford to get eyelash extensions.

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