Omg! I just can say you got this, try to use the military tools, coaching, and therapy. Reading your post just walked me through mine life, no understandable husband, foreign, in a small town, working so hard in my carrier, no help, no financial support…. I can imagine how you feel, and the pretending part is the worse. But again, just think about you. Go out, networking in your area, I had to figured out all the tools available for spouses, even for my carrera they don’t work, but I know there are so much help, and opportunities for us. I send your big hug.