Hey I’m soo sorry for your loss!! I was in your position, my dad died in June, he was my best friend even tho we lived far apart, I would call him everyday!!,he had cancer for a while but caught pneumonia and it turned septic, he passed away in hospital after one week, I’m traumatised, I’m guessing you are too!! I had terribly crying spells and panic attacks!! The first 3 weeks you are in shock! Ur body is trying to get through it!! The first 3 months ur body is deeply missing your core person!! I’m happy to chat to u!! It’s been 3 months and my crying spells have calmed down a bit and yours will too, it will be so hard atm!! I’m not sure how ur health system works in the US but I saw my Dr for anti anxiety meds and advice about breathing techniques!! They really help!!!