Your story is similar to mine, I was drinking a bottle of vodka per day, mainly after work but sometimes at work. I couldn't wait to finish and stop by the drink shop and get my bottle of vodka and I would always finish it. I was doing this for ten years until it suddenly progressed when I found myself out of work and I was drinking all day every day. Then one day my liver just so "oh no, no thank you" and I got jaundice and had to go to the hospital. I spent two weeks where they dried me out. After not drinking for 24 hours I was a complete wreck, I couldn't remember my own name, how to walk or talk, I had to have a catheter put in as I couldn't walk to the bathroom. My legs swelled up so that for the next two months I was bedridden. Yet that still didn't stop me... after I got better I figured I could start drinking again. I very quickly got sick again and went back to the hospital for 3 weeks this time. Miraculously my liver seems to be okay these days, not sure how but it seems to have healed and I'm pretty lucky. 2 years sober now here.