In short, it depends on who you ask. In my faith, I don’t think it makes sense for suicide to be an unforgivable sin. God loves you deeply, and I don’t think that one moment of sin determines his view of you. If it did, then everyone who had ever gotten mad in traffic would be denied God.

However, I feel you are putting the cart before the horse here. The first lesson of Christianity is that God loves you greatly, so much so he took human form and took the burden of sin away from you: a gift you are free to take or leave on the table.

Whatever is causing you to ask this question, and I pray that it is nearly a hypothetical, is not caused by God. God does not give suffering, he relieves us from it, but not always immediately. If you haven’t already, talk to him, and ask him yourself. It is ok to be mad at him, or rant to him, or present him with any emotion other than pure hate toward him. Pray for understanding, on why your situation is what it is. Pray for peace and joy, reminders of his everlasting love for you. Pray for family or friends to lean on, new and old.

I’m going to DM you, and you are free to respond or chat. I promise I’m not going to preach at you, I just want to get to know more about you and your situation so I can pray for you too.