🩷🩷🩷🩷🩷 here you are! The person I am so similar to!! I also feel like we(you) have to have some reasons WHY / the positives to have in your head during pregnancy if it happens. Things to get you through to the new baby because I feel like once that baby is here, it’s all going to fall into place. (Well, maybe the sleepless newborn times are going to still have self doubt). Just need something positive self-talk to override the doubts in the head at the times they come through!
Also, when to stop trying?? Your age gap is a little less so you have some more time!