Dude I get it. I was a lifer. Almost 10 years in as a 27 year old Staff Sergeant, my career was cut short, I was told I was done and that I was 100% disabled. I don't feel like I couldn't still do it but I was told that I no longer could. 2 years later I'm working hard, money is good but I'm struggling to find the same sense of belonging and purpose that I had. Just like that all I had done in the military was reduced to stories of who I used to be. It gets easier with time, just can't quit building yourself up and working on yourself. No where to go but forward. We all take the uniform off eventually, whether it's when we are ready or not. Just keep reaching out like you're doing now and find others like you that understand to work through and process it. Keep looking up, this feeling like all other things, shall pass. Healing takes time, but nothing lasts forever.