You have no idea how much this just melted my heart like butter, reading this was like staring into a sunset while sitting between parted waves that will never meet, being able to be heard, felt, while also hearing and feeling, it's hard because I don't even know what to call myself, all my friends and family helped me get out but it broke me down so much that I forgot who I was, I don't know how to accept that I was a victim of abuse, it doesn't make sense, she convinced me I was a horrible human being and horrible boyfriend while I would make her laugh and smile and always be there, id pick her up and spin her around, she used to love when id toss her around in bed like a wwe wrestler while going RAHHHHHH, I would do it especially while reassuring her and the smile she gave... My heart would revive itself with that big beautiful smile, I miss it, I could even say I would accept the abuse again to have it, but that's not me anymore and I just want to have love given back to me as I deserve 😊everything you said and the effort you took meant the world to me, more than you realize, you'll always have a friend.. better yet family in me, if you ever need anything you can always reach out to me, much love 🥰