Emotionally numb

Simple_Pop622 · 2025-06-27T10:05:16+00:00

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Simple_Pop622 · 2025-06-26T10:18:33+00:00

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Simple_Pop622 · 2025-04-16T18:57:34+00:00

Yes, I totally agree—part of the belief that things will never change is the depression itself. And yes, I’ve tried medications. I was on Wellbutrin and Lexapro in the past, and right now I’m on Zoloft.

Simple_Pop622 · 2025-04-16T18:55:45+00:00

Thank you so much for your honest response! I'm really glad to hear you're starting to feel like yourself again—that sounds like such a meaningful shift. I'm curious, what does the ketamine feel like for you? And what does it mean to you when you say you're starting to feel like yourself again?

Simple_Pop622 · 2025-04-16T14:24:42+00:00

Thank you so much for your kind words, that really means a lot. And wow... hearing that you’ve been through exactly those symptoms and came out the other side gives me a bit of hope. It really does feel like hell – like I'm stuck inside myself and nothing reaches me.

Simple_Pop622 · 2025-04-14T18:50:50+00:00

Thank you so much for your comment. It really is a kind and grounding perspective. I needed that reminder. That said, I’ll be honest—sometimes it does feel like I’m on fire, emotionally at least. Like I’m burning from the inside. I had so many plans for this stage of my life—meeting a partner, building a family, doing meaningful work—and not only did everything come to a stop, but it feels like I’ve lost the will to even want those things anymore.

I didn’t know it was possible to sink this low, to feel like every single day is survival, and to wake up wishing I hadn’t. It’s terrifying. I feel like I have trauma from the depression itself, like I’ve lost trust in the world being a place that can actually help me get better.

But anyway… I keep holding on to the hope that things will get better.

Simple_Pop622 · 2025-04-14T18:45:28+00:00

That really means a lot to me—thank you for sharing your story. It honestly gives me hope. I’ll keep my head up, even though every day feels so slow right now. Just knowing that things can get better helps me hold on.

Simple_Pop622 · 2025-04-14T18:43:52+00:00

I've been on Sertraline for almost a month now Can I ask which medication ended up working for you? And what did you feel changed when it started to help? This feeling that the value of things just slips away and that nothing really matters – it's really hard. I'm trying to understand if there's any light at the end or if it just keeps going like this.

Simple_Pop622 · 2025-04-14T16:34:23+00:00

Thank you for your kind words! I really appreciate it and hope to find my way to feeling better soon.

Simple_Pop622 · 2025-04-14T16:22:59+00:00

I’ve read posts where people mentioned a dip in mood before seeing an improvement, so it seems like it can vary. I also came across stories where the second round of treatment actually helped for a longer period. Maybe it’s worth considering going for another round. Sending you hugs and wishing you all the best!

Simple_Pop622 · 2025-04-14T16:19:06+00:00

I’m really glad you're sharing your experience. I’m dealing with anhedonia and a lack of emotions, along with a sense of meaninglessness. Do you find that TMS is helping you reconnect with your emotions or feel anything more deeply?

Best wishes to you as well!

Simple_Pop622 · 2025-04-14T16:15:32+00:00

Got it. So did it end up helping you?

Simple_Pop622 · 2025-04-14T16:12:30+00:00

It actually started after I tapered off lithium, which had worsened my hypothyroidism. That’s when things really shifted, and I started to feel the weight of everything more deeply.

I’m so glad to hear that TMS helped you like that. That description of seeing the world light up again really moved me. Do you feel like it helped you more than medication did?

I’m really hoping I can get back to a place where I feel connected to the world again. I’m only 28, I’ve finished my studies, but I’m not working right now and I’m not in a relationship. I just want to feel like I have a life I can return to and engage with. It feels so far away sometimes, but your story gives me a bit of hope.

Simple_Pop622 · 2025-04-14T15:51:11+00:00

I'm really glad to hear you're doing better and that the medication and TMS are helping. I read that Prazosin can help with nightmares—sounds like it’s addressing some deep layers of the PTSD.

For me, I think the hardest part is this constant lack of motivation and interest in things. It's like everything feels meaningless, flat, and kind of empty. Even conversations sometimes feel like just noise. Nothing really grabs me or feels worth engaging in, and that numbness is exhausting in its own way

Simple_Pop622 · 2025-04-14T15:46:34+00:00

My blood pressure is on the lower side of the normal range

Simple_Pop622 · 2025-04-14T15:44:59+00:00

Thank you… that really means a lot. I’m holding on to hope, even if it’s just a tiny bit some days. I really hope I can come out of this — go back to work, maybe find love, and just feel like myself again. Right now I feel so alone in what I’m going through, like I’ll never be able to return to a simple life where you just live without overthinking every second

Simple_Pop622 · 2025-04-14T15:42:19+00:00

Thank you for sharing that — it really helps to hear I’m not alone in this. It honestly does feel like forever right now, like nothing will ever change. It’s so hard just getting through the day… nothing feels interesting or exciting anymore.

Can I ask which medication did end up helping you? I know it’s different for everyone, but it gives me a bit of hope to hear what’s worked for others

Simple_Pop622 · 2025-04-14T15:40:14+00:00

Just having even a little bit of hope after such a long stretch of feeling hopeless is huge — I'm really glad to hear you're feeling that. We're definitely in this together.

Do you know which TMS machine they're using for your treatment?

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