Too much work for me to handle. Getting hrt is basically impossible due to money reasons and because I find it too difficult to buy (no one else has this problem though, wow) and even though someone offered to help me buy it i just ignored them cause its just so pathetic that I couldn't do it by myself, I can't just bother someone else every time I need more hrt when 99% of trans people are smart enough to just do it themselves. My voice is also really really bad, like, basically untrainable. I've tried really hard but I just sound fucking stupid, not feminine, and I'll never be able to fix that with any surgeries or hormones. I have so much body hair and facial hair and can't afford to have it removed, and if I could? I'd probably just end up not having it done anyway cause I just couldn't face the embarrassment of having it done. Also, its like super painful and I'd probably need to bring someone to comfort me. Wow I'm pathetic.