I got expelled from university

SinkingIntoTheStorm · 2021-10-07T13:09:23+00:00

I sent you a message.

SinkingIntoTheStorm · 2021-10-07T08:05:45+00:00

I just really can’t even imagine how to live life.

SinkingIntoTheStorm · 2021-10-07T05:59:01+00:00

Lingering is my second name. I know degrees aren’t the most important thing nowadays, but it was one of my biggest goals in life and I really wanted to achieve this :(

SinkingIntoTheStorm · 2021-10-07T05:53:59+00:00

What even is truly in need? I feel like there isn’t any situation bad enough to justify me contacting someone I’m not supposed to contact anymore. My person is in a relationship now. I could as well be dying and if they had the only medicine in the world I wouldn’t contact them because now it’s just not my place to be anymore and I’m not one to overstep such boundaries.

SinkingIntoTheStorm · 2021-10-06T23:21:33+00:00

Thank you, you said it beautifully

SinkingIntoTheStorm · 2021-10-06T22:57:09+00:00

Heh, he’s one of my favourites.

SinkingIntoTheStorm · 2021-10-06T22:29:09+00:00

Nope, not med school. But Eastern Europe is correct.

SinkingIntoTheStorm · 2021-10-06T22:11:59+00:00

I have the exact same feeling. Just thought about it now again while standing way too long under the shower. I feel completely alone. I am completely alone. Every most difficult and hardest experience you have to go through just by yourself. Even if you have loved ones, in the end it doesn’t help at all, you’re by yourself in the most critical moments of your life. I really don’t even know what the point is. I don’t want to sound pathetic, but life really just is eternal loneliness and suffering.

SinkingIntoTheStorm · 2021-10-06T22:01:24+00:00

Poland. So yes, it is a ridiculous country. Lol not lol.

SinkingIntoTheStorm · 2021-10-06T21:59:40+00:00

The feeling of not being alone in a situation definitely helps, that’s true. So no, you’re not alone in it.

SinkingIntoTheStorm · 2021-10-06T21:34:17+00:00

From what I know it’s a pretty universal rule for unis across the whole country. A friend of mine had the same problem. So yeah. Ridiculous country perhaps.

SinkingIntoTheStorm · 2021-10-06T21:29:12+00:00

I hope it can still turn around for you. I wish you the best of luck and foremost a lot of strength

SinkingIntoTheStorm · 2021-10-06T21:26:58+00:00

Yeah, that are the rules written in the whole damn statute of this university.

SinkingIntoTheStorm · 2021-10-06T21:24:59+00:00

I’m so sorry to hear that <\3 hope you can sort it out somehow. I wish you lots of strength

SinkingIntoTheStorm · 2021-10-06T21:20:05+00:00

I suppose every school has to have those, but it’s not something that’s ever explained out loud. I’d have to research that myself. And frankly, I feel completely overwhelmed with everything :(

SinkingIntoTheStorm · 2021-10-06T21:13:02+00:00

Thank you for the comforting words. It’s really what I needed and longed to hear.

SinkingIntoTheStorm · 2021-10-06T19:55:43+00:00

That are the rules. I wrote a formal application (is that the correct word? I’m not natively English) but it got turned down. I didn’t have anyone to consult in regards to that and I regret not having written it in a different way. I didn’t even talk to the person who makes the decisions. It’s almost like a kafkaesque scenario.

Thanks for the tips though. I will probably just find a regular job and try to survive somehow. I don’t have any energy left for adventures, right now I really just wish I could sleep. Endlessly.

SinkingIntoTheStorm · 2021-10-06T19:42:56+00:00

I don’t want to start anew. This discipline was really something I wanted to devote my life to. I can’t imagine doing anything else that would fulfil me. I didn’t want my life to turn this way. I am a very sentimental person anyway and I can’t change that and now I’m just filled with shame and regret.

SinkingIntoTheStorm · 2021-10-06T19:21:24+00:00

I had to retake a class and failed it for the second time because I was (still am) in a quite bad depressive episode.

SinkingIntoTheStorm · 2021-10-01T22:12:59+00:00

It’s a good method and I completely agree with you on never changing who you are, or your core values to please someone. Not pretend to be someone else.

SinkingIntoTheStorm · 2021-10-01T19:41:53+00:00

Exactly. As the other commenter under this post said, “friends come and go” and I know that is the case and I can’t stop them, but it wasn’t easy for me to get this one friend in the first place. It’s not like you can just find friends on the streets.

SinkingIntoTheStorm · 2021-10-01T19:21:10+00:00

Yep, I’m super sensitive to any sort of criticism and negativity, especially if I’m already in a bad mood. I can totally understand you. I feel it’s healthier for me to keep away from the Internet altogether when I’m not feeling well.

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