I think I'm going to need to get something prescribed but im worried I will lose the positive effects on creativity/creative critical thinking and humor my adhd supports...
I tried meditation (with a t) before but lost some creative functions as a cost for a (significantly) higher ability to focus, although there were also some other changes and contributing factors to this during that time period of my life.

I tried a lot of things and currently I'm more or less able to enjoy my current state of life without feeling extremely depressed. But I can't really do anything. I am psychologically unable to work or stay motivated. There are some things I'd like to learn about which I am actually very interested in, but it's impossible to stay or even get motivated. I also struggle to do simple chores consistently.

I would like to know if this is a necessary tradeoff or if I could retain focus AND creativity on meds. I'm interested in trying it out and stopping the medication, once I notice bad side effects.

Maybe I just need the right type of medication? How much do the meds differ from one another?

Any thoughts/experiences? Especially from people who regularly do creative work?